lately I’ve been dreaming about my sick aunt...

Before her health drop down a couple of months ago, I even went there to look out for her.

During that time she's being under diagnosis about what her sickness is.

Then later on we found out that her kidney is deteriorating rapidly so she went to have a

Blood dialysis immediately.

The first thing that enters my mind that time was,

My aunt so old now, I hope that she could still make it.

The problem is, I’m so afraid to visit her right now.

Call me paranoid or whatever but whenever I visit a very sick person whether they're my relatives or just

Someone I know, they immediately pass away right after I left.

Maybe I am just paranoid... but it didn't happen just once or twice...

It already happened quite a lot for me to ignore that stupid paranoia of mine.

I so miss my aunt and I’m so worried about her but am too afraid...

My uncle says, I better pay her a visit now or else I might regret it later on...

But there's tiny bit part of saying I still don't want to even if...

Especially now that they keep on telling me that she's looking for me a lot.

I’m really sad when I heard that.

And you know what I hate a lot about those dreams...

Is that in my dreams she's so healthy and nagging

She’s always been the nagging type especially to me

And what's more scary is that my dead aunt and grandmother was

Always there asking her to come with them, but she would always

Refuse them saying that she's waiting for because we still have to go somewhere else first.

Right now, my eyes are getting teary.

Every night before I go to bed and every morning before I start my day, I pray for her.

What should I do?