My life right now is really awesome, I have my wonderful new friends here in college. I though im gonna lose them but i didn't. But i had a crush on this guy. Crush not love ok. I like him not because of physical appearance i liked him because he is kind hearted and so humble. God is really good for were always together when its group activity. Totally almost all our activities! So we exchange number coz he is my leader. We texted for almost everyday. Sad to say we only talked about his ex-girlfriend! They just broke up this june and the girl cheated on him or cant take thier long distance relationship? Its only vacation then the girl cant take it. What a waste! -.- And he also told me that she had a big respect to us girls. And its a big turn on! Then we got closer to each other but suddenly that closeness just fade away. I dont how i dont know why everything went to fast... He's ignoring me. And I'm too. Then i knew that one of my classmate like him too. So its bothering me. So i end up confessing my feelings to him. I told him that i like him then he thank me for being true. I wasnt expecting that for an answer. I want him i want him to like me but he still love the girl from the past. It hurts but i have to accept it. And he told me that he already know that i liked him so i though it was the end of our story but it didnt stop. In our classroom we ignore one another. I saw him looking at me then he'll only look away when i found out. I dont know if it was just my illusion but i can really feel it. Then time flies and the girl im talking about that like him too.... It was her birthday... And my classmates surprised her with cake and a rose. And the rose was given by him. He looked so happy giving the rose to that girl. They took a picture of theirselve and i was like 😱 i didnt react actually i was just smilling for my classmates are clapping for them. Then my friend told me that she saw him looking at me. I hope he feel that it hurt and jealous. That time i decided not to talk to him forever. Just kidding i'll talk to him when only needed or something important. Soo in july i didnt talk to him much but one day he got bruise in his eye. I was so worried. So i end up asking him what happen. He didnt told me what happen. But when i texted him he already told me that its only because of the game then i ask why he's not texting me, he didnt answer. 😬 So that time me and him are totally over. I liked him alot but im no good for him.