Sometimes, my heart swells up with happiness, and other times, it contracts with all the worries.

Sometimes, I think dying is better than living miserably.

Sometimes,  people turn their back to me ; I feel so..... let down

Sometimes, our close ones are the ones who mostly betray us ; why do they have to betray us??

Sometimes, people push us away if we don't have the fame they ask for.

Sometimes, our friends are the only ones who comfort us. We feel so grateful towards them

Sometimes, just sometimes, all fingers point at us for something we didn't do on purpose.

All this, makes my heart burst and fall to pieces ; people crush our heart so easily

My heart asks this question again and again - won't they think before crushing our heart, partly us?

Won't they think of the trust we had on them before betraying us??

Won't they think about our feelings towards them before turning their back upon us?

Why, just why is this world so cruel towards me?

I think about it everyday ; just the thought brings heartbreaks

But no, dying is not the solution for all the problems,

Hiding from them is also not the exact solution!

Facing them is too, way too hard for me

Oh god, please, will you show me a way?

Are you that heartless to see me die by all the problems I have?

Are you cruel enough to let me experience this?

Why don't you just take me away from the cruel world which doesn't care about anyone else, and is just content with themselves? 

Are you testing my strength to experience pain?

If yes, then please, stop it already, I've been experiencing this for over years now, my family has been experiencing this for almost half of their life

Just why us out of the millions and millions of people, why did you choose us to experience this heartbreaks?

My heart is wounded enough now, please, stop this before making a deeper wound in my already hurt heart!

If you can hear this, dear god, this is what I tell you :

You're not a god if you keep giving us heartbreaks after heartbreaks, my heart is just the size of a fist, it can't take more wounds than this.

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A/N - Okay guys, this is just a piece of my heart, I explained it as much as I can in simple words.

To those who don't read rants, please don't read this

I just felt the need to write it to someone, to take the weight away from my heart

And, I've become mostly an Atheist now. Seriously, why is god even there if He keeps giving us heartbreaks??

Okay, thanks for reading this my dear friends.... I ♥ u guys for taking time to read this

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