Im pretty sure, you guys are gonna hate me for this... And Im sorry. But I just cant handle the stress Kris is giving me at the moment...

I know, you all are very much avid fans of exo, like me. We all love them, dearly, with all our hearts. And Im pretty sure we never wanted them to grow apart as to what is happening at the moment.

But with Kris' scandal and Baekhyun dating and all that effin circulating around them, Im just clearly hurt and disappointed. To make it clear, Im not disappointed at Baekhyun, but mainly Kris. 

Now this is where you have to hear me out, okay? Please, just read and dont throw a fit about what Im about to say... Just try and understand me on my point of view...

I've always looked up to EXO, with their charismatic performances, handsome physique, talented members, funny personalities and wonderful melody. Infact I would probably will idolize these guys... 

Everytime I see them, I feel like I fell in love with these boys all at the same time. I dont care what they do, I just love them. But ofcourse, my patience always have limits. The moment the news broke out that Kris was leaving EXO, I was devastated. I cried all night, and was very quiet the next day only to cry when I got home. I cant seem to stare at his image for not more than 10 seconds and maintain a calm face. 

I was praying that he somehow changes his mind and stays with the group, cuz that's how were supposed to be. I also found out that he was diagnosed with a Myocarditis, which I also found out as an imflammation of the heart muscle.

I threw fits and was cursing and badmouthing SM. I was devastated with the way they treat their artists. 

But as I read the issue regarding him, my mind wandered towards the point a fangirl's mind shouldn't have touched. 

As a student, Im not really the kind to just believe everything. I always try to look for answers myself and listen to both sides before giving my verdict, and on this one I give it to SM.

I researched on Kris' issue and other past issues of SMent. Fine, I would admit that SM had bad conditions in these circumstances. They actually had bad contracts for their artist.

But as an individual member with your own free will, you signed, fully informed with these conditions. You signed, though you know you're probably gonna be slaved to achieve your dream. 

 What really bugs me the most is the fact that this topic is almost the same as Han Geng. And hear this, Kris took his legal advicers as well. Im not trying to point everything back to kris here at the moment, rather show you my thoughts about his issues. I just find them quite intriguing and irritating.

And with what it looks like at my point of view is, kris left days before their actual concert. I think this is planned. If you were to seperate from a band days before their actual concert and on the bands peak, you would take out fans, that will possibly make you even bigger than you were in that group.

Now isn't that quite intriguing?

I find this really irritating. What he did displays to me as an act of defiance against the company. I find Kris as a traitor to the group. 

Each member of that band is given the chance to achieve their dream. But with Kris' parting the group suddenly took a downfall with shattered hearts and tired mind and body. He left the group, tiring them and possibly lowering their chance to actually avhieve what they deserved. If you were in EXO and someone suddenly left, wouldn't you feel angered by this? I would be.

In this business its every man for himself. But on this topic, I atleast expected Kris to stay with EXO through the good and the bad. he left them weeks before, rushing the members to repeat their hard work they have been doing for months. 

After weeks another news came to my eye. Saying that Kris had his solo schedule. This struck a nerve. I thought that he was sick? I thought that he wanted to rest? I thought that he was tired with SM giving him orders in doing schedules? So why now?

I saw the news about his new movie and recently the rumour of him dating. 

I shouldn't really tackle the dating part since Baekhyun is also in the same issue but I'll do it for the sake of my tired heart.

Im sorry but I dont think Baekhyun and Taeyeon are actually together. There might be a chance that its true but Im sorry, I dont believe it. I dont care if SM approved of it or whatnot but I dont believe them.

I think that news came out as a cover up because Kris has been scooping up alot of symphaty and attention by his sudden move. Them not wnting to lose to him, set up an idea to center the attention back to EXO, and that is creating  a fake reality with one of the members dating a popular girl.

I mean, SM wouldn't let a member from a very popular and a still young group to actually start dating. I heard of dating bans in many companies and I think something like that also happens in SMent.

So Im sorry... But I really had to get this out. In my eyes, Kris left EXO as a sign of betrayal. Nothing is gonna change my mind about it... :/