Regarding Kris leaving EXO, I looked at it so black and white, I didn't consider the feelings for either side, I only acknowledged what was there. I knew that there would be pain on both sides, I knew that there would be loss, betrayal, anger, but I decided to look at it anaylytically. I decided to only consider the factors and the pain of loss and believe that what was done is done. This is what was easy for me, that's how I close myself off to pain, I look to the facts and ignore the feelings I or others feel (though I am well aware of exactly what feelings transpires between both sides). I get that Kris was hurt by the company and that he wanted to follow his dreams so he changed the vehicle that was taking him there for one that got him a movie within the first month rather than two plus years. I get that the members weren't told until he had already left without any warning. I understand the mistrust they must have felt, and the guilt that Kris had to have felt. But I just said to myself that although they are apart of my life I am not apart of theirs so I left the feelings out and ignored it as much as I could. 

  It wasn't until Happy Camp that I realised just how much feeling there is for the boys. I have felt the pain of betrayal and being left behind by a loved one, so I felt their pain when they stood on the stage, watching their fellow members express their feelings on a screen, much as I am now. It's hard to watch people cry, go through pain, and being able to emphasize with them. I don't know all of Kris' side, I haven't heard anything on him since he left, I don't know all of EXOs side, I don't know how much SM has done, or what might have been a rash retalition by the boys. But I do know the hurt of watching a love one leave, I know the pain of not knowing when I will ever see them again, wondering if they really ever cared, if I was the only giving in our realtionship, and doubting whether they trusted me at all. To finally compehend, let alone accept the emotions the EXO members presented in the episode is something I don't want to do. But I am because no matter what I will always love EXO and whether or not I stop listening to their music they will be apart of my life. I will support Kris, I will accept EXO as 11 but I will always wish to see 12, I will always long to see Kris standing with them and they will always be those 12 aliens that I could have once sworn looked exactly alike. The boys are being so strong right now, and I admire Lay and Tao for crying, it's hard for me to feel so deeply about my situtation and for them to be able to is a gift, whether they realise it or not it'll help. It's always easier to appreciate and feel joy after feeling pain, please continue being strong, I know I'm not the only one that supports you guys, EXO, fighting!