This is the first time ever im writing a blog post.i feel that i need to write one to pour what i have been feelings these days.

With the airing of HC,it safe to say that from now on,im no longer an exo fan.well tbh,i have been struggling to be their fan since the start of growl.so many things happened in the fandom that keeps making me want to leave,but each time,there's little thing been done by the members that makes me stay,makes me wanna be there for them.

I am a person who get attached emotionally,very easily.when i see exo,at first,i only like certain members,and kris was the first one.as time goes on,i fell in love with more of them,bc i see how they interact and i feel warm seeing such a good r/s.i live up everyday feeling happy bc their happiness makes me happy.i even wish i could have something like that too in my life bc r/s was never something that i can have easily.

So,when this issue happened and i see exo themselves quick to push the whole ot11 thing,i got shocked.bc in my mind wasnt they been tgt long?is it that easy to move on?they act like it was nothing 

But then,in HC they cry,an exact opposite of how they show their emotions in korea.

Im not saying what they do is fake,no not at all tbh,but i just-this situation break my trust to them.lol its funny bc they dont have any obligation to me,so i shouldnt be this sad but yeah tbh this is how i feel

Heartbroken by fake promises.both from exo and wyf themselves.im ok with them continuing their life,its their life anyway,it just well i cant keep on supporting anymore,u guys have many fans anyway.maybe i wasnt cut for this.

Im not hating,but i dont want to keep hurting,so i choose to just go away for a while.i have it hard when dbsk broke up,i cant do it again this time.

Thank you for the 2 years.i hope u guys cherish the past and keep on going strong.

P/: i might still write fic even if im not in fandom bc i still stan some members just not exo as a whole