Hello !!!

Sorry for making you all listen to my rant >.<
I really need to make this notice, I feel so sorry for not answering any request poster since ages ago

There’s a something that I need to tell you

To be honest, I’ve a very low self confidence ( believe me, because I do ) I never satisfied with whatever that I made. if I only have 1 – 2 poster request I still can try to make it better, but whenever I have more than 4 poster request, I really feel so useless and down . I’ve a reason for that

Why I can’t give my best when it come to make a poster :

1. I actually can’t and I don’t know how to use photoshop
   whenever I see a beautiful poster done by photoshop, I feel so amazed ! wow ! they really talented people : )) I feel so envy, I want to make something like that too. I want to try it, but I’m so old now, I don’t have any will and patience to learn from zero  anymore. So im stick with what I’ve got until now “chasys draw ies” chasys can help me to make a poster that I want, but ofc It still way undeeeeeerrrrrr photoshop. The effect, the brush and etc and sometimes there’s a request that want specific order of poster. ( no no no >.> its not a burden at all !!!! I love to help you create a poster that you want, read the next reason )
    
2. I’ve a low internet budget ( LOL )

Yes u__u I’ve a very low internet budget, I come from a well… a decent family background, I can only spent around 50K IDR (or around 4 US Dollar) a MONTH and sometimes if there’s a lot of requester, I need to go out and spent more money in café internet or etc hahahaha. That’s why  /sighs/ I cant do my best, im sorry !! Orz
I cant do anything about that. Im not working yet, so whenever my quota all used up, my internet speed is around 128 kbps its so hard to find the right pic in google with that speed.

3. I’ve a very low self confidence

Hmnn… this is the real me. Im a second child and I’ve a sister that can do better than me, whatever that she done always perfect, unlike me … I feel so useless and my parents always remind me how failed child I am since young or should I say a kid ? that’s why .. whenever and whatever I’ve done never seems good in their eyes and they always said how I don’t have any talent . so whenever you all praise me about how good I am … it give me a burden instead and I can’t bring myself to believe all that praise .

4. Schedule
   yes. Schedule, I may no longer a student but im in university now. I need to pretend to be normal and keep myself with all my friend I need to go shopping with them, spend time with them and I choose the most hard major orz  . I need to study /nods/ I shouldn’t have choose that major ( Im majoring Law, and now im under training to become a lawyer or maybe public prosecutor )
    
5. I lost my art talent

(It’s a nonsense ?) I’ll tell you, someone can lost art sense because some reason . when I was young, I love to draw, I love art, but whenever I experience with art like painting drawing etc, my parents always yell at me. Because they said art will not give me a bright future. I keep hold out, until .. maybe I reach my limit and never touch art anymore. That bought me to digital art, but my parents refuse to provide me with knowledge. They banned me from internet, whenever I ask for photoshop program they always delete it /sighs/ and I just start again when im in university. Because they no longer care about what im doing as long as im still breathing. And just like what I said, God give me a way to do my hobby in art. But I lost my interest .. I don’t have any will to learn art.  That’s why my art not upgrading at all.

Im not a good designer and I know that, with this notes… I want to say sorry for all my requester that half of them are my friend, I failed and I shouldn’t have make a shop on the first place /bows one hundred times/ Orz

Im so sorry, but if you really need a poster. Just PM me ^^ I’ll be glad to help you all

Please .. please DON’T ever give me a karma for a poster that I made, I made it for free ! >.< just thank is enough . you don’t need to give me karma
I love karma, but im not so obsessed with karma, so I keep it low and use karma that I earn from a subscriber that subscribe in my story or shop. So you don’t need to pay me at all . OK ???

We all friend in here, so feel free to ask me ^ ^

I never held grudge . I may feel annoyed sometime (I’m a human too) but I never hate someone, I love it when I can help someone. I love seeing you all smile but now you know that I’ve a problem like what I mention in this notes.

See you around my friend.

Have a nice day and God Bless you .