I think most of you know that I'm a dancer, my family is struggling with money (more like unwilling to pay for dance) and my parents' marriage have been on the rocks. They just don't have the money to file a divorce and do hefty just so that they can separate. Oh please, do we really need a lawyer and like that to show that a couple have been divorced? They don't even look like they are married, don't even know each other. My mom confesses that she tries to communicate with my dad by texting him but he never replies (did she even text the right number?).

Monetary issues. My dad said that this will be the last time he will be paying for my dance fees. Saying he doesn't want to pay because she started it. 

And then he comes back and I expect him to nag at why I am still not showering after dance and it's late and and he says, "let me remind you again that I didn't push you around, it was you who pushed it to me."

Does he really hate paying for dance? 

Sometimes I just wish they are separated so I'll deal with less BS. Nah, they'll still talk bad about each other. Still married? I don't want to see them together, so awkward. 

So if someone asks me if they are divorced? Well they are married, but a piece of paper can't make them settle amicably or bind them together? They don't even have a wedding ring. (I was never expecting them to last. I'm surprised they didn't divorce sooner.) Are they divorced? Well they are total strangers. Do I really need them to be divorced before I can rant and grief (well I'm doing it but people wouldn't accept it, it ain't normal, isn't it)

I'm done with all the contradicting stories they tell me. They just feed me more, but I would really like to live with my instructors even though their cats are scary. They live just a street away, but their homes are much homely than mine. Maybe the grass is greener on the other side? But my instructors are very inspirational figures who have taught me how to be more disciplined, taught me more than I could ever ask for.