So today I wrote my maths exam...i have a tutor in maths

She really helped me alot

I really did study ! 

But I in failed the maths exam

Today when I was reading the task I was like wtf ok just gonna do it but then somehow it didn't make sense but who cares ain't nobody got time for dat

                       ANALYSIS:

Next task: everything was fine until I noticed that my result was DEFINITELY WRONG but I really didn't know what I did wrong I just followed the steps I learned ! Well maybe I can solve it later 

               ANALYTIC GEOMETRY

Next task: everything was ok until I couldn't solve one like I really didn't get any result...so I just wrote some random shiz

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Next task: now when I read this I was like 'what.the. it looked really simple but I had no idea how I could solve this task and this task has 8 freaking points !!! And I wrote NOTHING !!! 

                   STOCHASTICS

This was the last task and I was actually pretty confident with stochastics but man when I read the task I was like ok easy but when I tried to actually do it...GOD I had no idea HOW so I read again and again and again but I really couldn't understand it! I didn't have much time left so I began to panic I tried to calm down for 10min and tried it again but...damnit really it was LITERALLY MIND !!!!! I couldn't solve it with numbers so I only wrote with letters but still ...that means I still haven't found out probability ! And yeah so I didn't have time to actually look at my other tasks again...

Even my classmate who NEVER CRIES because of a grade or exam CRIED DURING THE EXAM !!!

The strange thing is after finishing it I knew I failed but I was still happy like made no mistakes LOLOLOLOL but now I feel guilty and bad....I feel guilty for my tutor and my parents...my parents pay her and my tutor trusts me and is my friend......

I mean I am sure it will be awkward for her if my parents find out I still failed...for me if I fail this it's actually not a big deal because I was good in the other maths exams...

So I am in 11th grade and I live in germany. Starting 11th grade we won't have grades anymore but points from 0 to 15.

15-14-13 is an A 12-11-10 is a B 9-8-7 is a C and so on only the 0 is an F. 

So if I get 3points in this exam (I HOPE I CAN MAKE IT LOL) then I will have 7 points in my school certificate. So it's a C. I know for you guys think it's really bad especially for you americans.

My friend was one year in the US and went to high school there and she said school is nothing compared to here in germany like she told me they have learned things in 10th grade that we already learned here in 4th grade...So I understand that you guys barely have Cs and that you might be shocked how bad I am

But really a C is really normal / good here lol

I don't know anything about the school system in the US so if I am wrong please correct me, don't hate or bash me I didn't mean to offend anyone ! 

So my point is...I in failed this exam, it was my last chance, I am responsible for this, I have lots of pressure form my parents and tutor, I don't want to disappoint them BUT DAMN HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID I COULDN'T EVEN SOLVE THE EASIEST ONE LIKE I KNEW BUT I THOUGHT IT WAS WRONG FML

I could slap myself so hard right now....if u have any tips for feeling better or anything please share...I feel so guilty...