SIDE TO SIDE

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Luhan POV

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Let’s say my whole life is a joke, thanks to this cold bastard who lied next to me. The name was Kim Jongin, or you can call him Kai because he loved how it sounds. Not only he had handsome face but he was blessed with gorgeous body of a God, or that’s what other girls said about him. Frankly, I knew him too well to exclude the goodness from him so there is only selfishness, haughtiness, and gloominess left. Wait, he’s also rude and mean. Not mention he could be too sometimes.

Why would I bother telling you this? You’re not the one who stuck with him, but me, Lu Han. It’s my entire fault, because I love him for three years in our high school time, and even before I confessed, he asked me first to live together because coincidentally, we’re going to enter the same university in New York. Sadly, it’s not because he loved me. This girl, Krystal, was decided to be his fiancé and he disliked her for thousands reason, and on the top of that he kept saying to me, “I hate girls who chase their man. Especially them who confess first and refuse to get rejected. They should rot to hell.” and he really made my heart crushed into pieces, making me broken heart to the point I turned deaf as he explained our term.

“You will be my fake, no, not fake, you’ll be my lover, Luhan. You don’t have to act loving me, just be shy and cute like you are now and let me deal with everything else.” My mind was blank and I could only nod like I understand the crap he said, “and because we’re lover, we’re sharing a bed of course, there will be cuddling or even friskier moments but I promise you, no except you agree with it…” as he kept talking, I kept nodding while counting every second passed until he dismissed me and let me find peaceful place to scream and cursing at how bossy and selfish he was. I was about to confess to him but he says someone like me should rot in hell. That was so cruel. It almost made me cry, but I tried hard not to. He’ll ask why. He was very sharp person, that’s why he became a great Director in our Drama Club.

“Luhan?” He called my name and startled me from my bitter thought, “are we have a deal, here?”

Puzzled with what kind of deal I’ve had with this devil, I shook his hand which was given to me and muttered a low, “deal.”

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In drama, I will always be the Cinderella, Aurora, or Juliet, but in the real life, I was owned by a man named Kai. Since the day I shook his hand, I was tied to be his lover and to make it hurt, not in a loving way. He didn’t love me and only care so much to me probably because I’m his partner in crime.

As he promised, after the graduation day we moved to a prestigious mansion in the heart of New York City, facing straight to the Central Park. Because I kept ignoring him every time he explained the detail of our relationship and only answered with sweet smile and a few words of, ‘that’s sweet’ or ‘great’ or ‘I can’t wait it.’ so when I was standing on the foyer of this vintage-styled apartment, I could only gaped at the luxury given to me.

I’m not from poor family, but I’m materialistic. That’s a very fatal flaw of me, every time I’ve seen something pricey I can’t stand but drooling over it. And now I know Kai was rich, forbidden excitement ran though my veins and my thirst tried to throw away my dignity and asked Kai anything I don’t need but I want to own. Jewelry, car, branded clothes, shoes, he should give me everything I want in exchange for my life.

I scrunched my face in disgust. Why I’m turning low so sudden?

“Are we going to live here?” Carefully, I ran my hand on the velvet fabric on the armchair. It was soft and dreamy that I can’t help but smiling when I touched it. I felt steps approaching and when I looked up, I saw Kai walked at me and surprisingly gave me a loose hug along with a wide grin plastered on his handsome face, “why?” asked him coyly, “is it too small for us?” his husky voice made my face burst with red hue and my lips bitten harshly and my heart clenched so hard. I tried hard not to lose control and doing something stupid like punching him in the face for attacking my weak spot like this.

“You’re a bastard, Kai.”

At least he didn’t expect me to act. In here, I could be myself and so I try. At first he was surprised with the sulky me, the pouty me and the moody me, but easily he could adapt with my own complexity and when I realized it, it’s too late. He already had me under his control. He knew what to answer when I’m pissed with him, he knew what to make up for that later, and being a cheap puppet, I was frustrated because I know I was played yet I didn’t do anything to break free from his chain. I hated it for the fact that deep in my heart I enjoyed being his perfect doll.

“Why there’s only one room?” I remembered I asked it in the first day and he gave me a look which made my body shuddered in fear. Later, I knew the part of our agreement was also sharing bed as couple and that’s mean sharing our body scent and heat too. That was bad. I tried to lie as far as I could from him, but he scooted behind me and hugged me, said that if I was ashamed with this closeness, I can think about rehearsing a play. Just think about him as the man I love and relaxed, because we’ll always sleep this way from now on.

However, I only tensed more, because I do love him and now he didn’t give me a chance to cure my heart break, I can only love him more than I used to. So I took a deep breath and leaned into his touch, let him caged my body inside his embrace while my heart mourned that even we’re this near, my love for him will stay unrequited forever.

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