I recently found this article/note type of thing and I'd like to share it with you~ Hopefully it impacts you a little and allows you to think and cherish those around you. I'll translate this at the end, so do scroll down if you don't understand Chinese^^ Please note that it won't be translated word for word, but the meaning of the phrases and sentences. I'll try my best to word it so that it is closest to that of the original piece..

If you could, please do take a look~ I promise it won't be too long

其时，我很累了 
其实，一直没有人懂我。我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有… 
我不知道自己到底想怎么样 
有时候 
我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的； 
可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装 
我可以让自己很快乐很快乐， 
可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。 
我不习惯把事和别人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我。 
其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通通遗忘 
我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来… 
可是，我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞… 
黑夜来袭，周围的空气很冷… 
一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆… 
也不知道自己脑子里在想什么… 
怀念过去，仅此而已… 
其实，我也很渴望有一个人能懂我；能走进我的心… 
其实，我很累了，真的想放下所有… 
可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走… 
登QQ进入自己的空间 

看看有多少人还在意着我，来看过我，我有多少空间动态… 
接着 
下拉，再下拉… 
更重要的是自己关心的那个人的动态… 
却只是看看，并不打扰… 
何时发现，我不再爱写日志，即使有最新的日志，前面也会带个[转]… 
不是我变的懒了，而是我疲惫了… 

情愿用别人的语言，来抒发自己的情感… 

挂了QQ，却不上线 
挂了QQ，却不聊天 
只是反复着‘展开分组’和‘关闭分组’… 

上线，是为了打发寂寞； 
隐身，是为了躲避失望； 

就这样 
挂了QQ，隐了身，看着别人的一点一滴变化… 

何时 
我不喜欢追逐打闹，却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳 
何时 
我让自己变得沉默 ， 
却很想多了解身边所谓的朋友 

我喜欢在很静很静的深夜，关了灯让寂静把我包裹，却又害怕黑夜… 

我也会偶尔的和朋友聚聚， 
或开心 
或失望 

偶尔，也会寂寞的拿起手机翻开通讯录，一遍一遍的… 却不知道该打给谁、、、、、 
再好的东西都有失去的一天，再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天；再爱的人也有远走的一天；该放弃的决不挽留，该珍惜的决不放手！

credits to original owner: here

Actually, I am very tired

Actually, no one had ever understood me. I was already used to pretending to be strong, used to facing everything by myself...
I don't know in the end what I want to do 
Sometimes
I can talk with a person happily, even being presumptuous
But no one ever knows, that was just a mask, a deliberate disguise, façade
I can allow myself to be very happy, joyous even,
But I can't find the root to my happiness; I can only laugh foolishly
I am not used to talking about my problems with others, because I am not used to the looks of pity in people's eyes
Actually, I sincerely treasure those people who were around me, just that the stress that life gives makes me forget, forget all those memories we had
I thought that forgetting could allow be to become happier...
But the truth is that it made me become even more lonely...
Night comes, the surrounding air is cold...
I sit on the grass, alone, staring off into the sky in a daze
I don't know what my mind was thinking about...
Reminiscing the past, nothing more...
Actually, I also yearn to have someone that can understand me, able to walk into my heart
Actually, I am very tired, I want to let go of all that I have
But, the pressure of reality just makes me carry them all, walking forward slowly
Logging in to QQ (Chinese twitter/social networking), into my own personal space

Looking to see how many persons still care about me, still visited my page, wanting to see how much my situation has changed
Then
I scroll down, scroll down
Most importantly, I want to see the situation of that of the one I am most concerned about
I just look, not bothering him
It was found out, I no longer love writing posts, even if there are new posts, there is always that [forward] button in front of it
It is not that I have become lazy, it is because I am tired...

Using someone else's sentiments and words, to express my own feelings...

I've signed in to QQ, but not online
I've signed in to QQ, but not chatting
Only clicking the words 'open group' and 'close group'...

Online, so that I could chase away my lonliness;
Invisible, so that I could avoid embarassment;

Just like that,
Signing in on QQ, setting my status as invisible,  I watch others slowly change bit by bit...

When
I do not like chasing the bustling excitement, but wish that I could be like before, lively, roaming and frisking about

When
I let myself to become lonely
I would rather like to get to know those so-called friends around me

I really like to, in the solemn silence of the night, turn of the lights as lonliness embraces me, welcoming me into its grasp, even though I am afraid of the dark...

Occasionally, I would meet up with some of my friends,
Being happy,
Or being embarassed,

At times, I would open up my phone feeling alone, and scroll through the contacts...again and again,,,,, but I had no idea who I could call
Even the best things in life will be lost one day, even the deepest memory will be forgotten one day; even the one whom you love the most will be long gone one day; do not detain what needs to be given up, but do not let go of what needs to be cherished!

So there goes my translation of this post~ The way they wrote the Chinese was more touching to the heart as the way the words for ordered was mostly in parallel structure, especially at the end~ Anyways, I hope you like this post as much as me. I hope that you can leave some comments so I can know what you think^^

So, never forget those who are always by our side; don't take them for granted! 

Love, Yuna