So it seems like i have disappeared but i promise you i havent. Just been Really busy with university and omg engineering is draining! Like you think its looks cool and its amaizng, but holy the amount of hard work is just. Yeah anyway, i have exams now, just finished one today and instead of studying for the next one i was writing poetry(?). I honestly dont know how it is, but please let me know. 

I could have it all, anything i want if I really tried, but you see I don't want to try.

I am still waiting for that one thing in my life that will restart my heart like a defibrillator does when your heart was dormant.

Because I know it will shake me to my very core, make me question everything about life and spark every single neuron in my body until I am blazing ith a passion so fierce that you will see the ashes of my past on the ground as i walk.

I will be born again......but you see, i am still waiting.

                                                                                                                                    - Unknown

I'm still learning.

I'm still learning how to fall in love without letting fear get in the way.

You see there is something so profound about love. 

When you first fall in love you give it your all, because you dont know otherwise. 

Its so exhilarating and all sorts of breath-taking and it overwhelms you until you feel nothing but love. 

Things change when that first love becomes your first heart break. 

You forget to love without limitations, because you are constantly terrified of the prospect of getting your heart broken again. 

You create this illusion that love will only ever mean getting hurt and that forevers' don't exist.

But you see what you seem to forget is that love isn't about forveres' and eternities..

Its about being able to experience an emotion that is unlike any you will ever feel. 

It's being able to care for another being without holding back anything. 

It's feeling for another soul so recklessly that people around you want to feel that emotion too. 

Love doesn't give you wings, but it sure as hell makes you feel like you can fly. 

                                                                                                                                                                       - Fearless love

Honestly i dont even know what i just wrote, but i just really needed to get back into writing poetry. I miss writng poetry and being able to experience things or even just being able to put myself into others shoes. The last poem, i wish i could feel all that one day. To be able to love so freely would probably be one of the best feelings. Anyway, let me know how it is <3