i woke up this morning feeling okay. i greeted y friends on text. i ate my breakfast. i browse on facebook, twitter and instagram.

when i saw that profile, suddenly my mood changed. i don't know why i suddenly felt so low and so lonely. i wasn't suppose to feel this way anymore.

i accepted the fact that it is impossible. no matter what i do we cannot happen. it's just a beautiful nightmare i have to get used to.

it's so ironic how i in love to hear that voice and yet i have to pretend it .how i love to always read ur name in my inbox yet i have to hold my self to text

you back with sweet words and heartfelt messages. the best i could do is send you a in joke.

i wanted you so bad but the best i could do is stare at your picture and smile like a maniac who escaped fro a far flung assylum.

i so desperately wanted to hold you tight and whisper the words i long to say to you, to say that I love you.

but the best i could come up with is to pm you " how are you?"