2014 May 30,

6:24am

Dear AFF Members,

I'm sorry to bother you guys but....I really have no where else to speak my mind. I feel like if I tell my friends, they'll think I'm nuts..because they don't understand...especially not the ones who are into KPop like me..

You guys..I'm devastated...I'm not coping well. Kris leaving EXO is heart breaking, especially to me who followed EXO since before debut, since they were just little trainees...before they formed EXO..when they all were said to even be parts of different groups..though I still had no recognition of Kris at the time..but when I spotted him in the "History" practice performance, I snagged him...Kris is not only my EXO bias, but one of my ULTIMATE biases among TOP, GiKwang, and JaeJoong. I developd so much love for him since day one..I was so faithful to EXO and to Kris as his fan...Now..I'm at a loss for words...simply speechless. I fell in love with him and now my heart is ripped out of my chest and torn to pieces.

I'm really mad. Sad. Defeated. Confused. Disappointed... So many mixed emotions, I am.

I'm really left in complete anger over all.

In anger with SM

In anger with EXO

and ..

I'm in anger with the Dragon himself.................Kris.

I am angry at the fact that SM trainees and idols are treated like work mules. This same thing happened with the split of TVXQ and HangGeng from SuJu. To this day I feel uncomfortable listening to JYJ and whats left of TVXQ...sometimes even SuJu...SM needs to chill, they can't work a person into sickness. Instead of protecting their employees they drive them into the hospital. I have read way too many articles on trainees secretly complainging about overwhelming work schedules and constantly fighting with other members {whether group or labelmates} because of unfair treatment of trainees, from SM. Kris is human, he needs his space. THEY ALL DO. How can they take his verses out of their songs?! How can they treat him with such coldness?? Taking EXO members phones away like that and unfollowing him on social sites and throwing out mallicious comments. And already there are rumors about a possible replacement. How can they? EXO is supposed to be one! No matter who they grab to replace him, that person can NEVER replace Kris. EVER!! 

I am angry at EXO. They are his brothers. How could they!? How could they go along with the unfair treatment? How could Tao, his closest member, go on Weibo and Instagram and claim Kris as a traitor? How can they simply go out on venues and shows saying Kris is wrong, and that he needs to apologize?! How can they do this without feeling any guilt from their words? How can they allow his verses to be removed from their songs?! Most of all, how can they go out on stage and perform without him like he never existed, with the biggest smiles plastered on their faces and the utmost confidence showing through their performances like he was just a ghost and never part of the team? How can they? No one can tell me "they had to" or "its all a facade" and "its just a show, they're hurting inside." Dont. Just stop there. When you hurt me I'll tell you so, I will not bite my tongue, nor should they!!!! They're supposed to protect him!!! They're supposed to be one!

Most of all.....and it pains me to say this...but I am mad at Kris. I realize he grew up in a western culture, where work is limited and not forced all at once. But. He signed that contract. He knew what he had coming. WHY did he sign it if he couldn't handle it??! Its WHAT. HE. WANTED!!!! How could he leave his brothers behind?! They all look up to him...no I'm not trying to be funny and say they're all shorter...He was a leader and he just quit on them! How could he not ask to modify the contract before pulling a lawsuit and leaving!? How could he leave his brothers!?!? How could he leave his fans!? He's supposed to protect his fans..and most importantly his brothers. They are.........no........they WERE ONE....that phrase is so pointless now..

I hate EXO without Duizhang...I hate what SM has done and what EXO became...I hate this situation...and I hate that as a lover of EXO I, and the rest of the EXOtics, have to suffer. I cannot listent to EXO without Kris...without Duizhang, they are no longer EXO to me..just a boygroup I lost love and respect for...I know Kris is now ill with a heart condition and I don't blame him for wanting time off or asking to modify his contract. In fact, I am happy he stopped himself from going further for a while... but I am angry that he just up and left...I'm mad that he's been planning this since February, and I just found out a few weeks ago on the day of the lawsuit. I wish it was just a temporary vacation or just a sick leave...........I feel hurt..

I'm hurting so much. From Kris labeled clothes and jewelry, to all of their albums and songs, to more memorbillia on its way, I was a fan. A hard core, ride or die, in it to the end, never gonna stop loving them, especially KRIS, FAN! Now...I'm just broken like a toy left in the corner 'cause it's owner outgrew me.

Please DO NOT leave me any comments. I simply left this to rant, not to argue with anyone who views the situation differently. I dont want drama and a bunch of b-word this and b-word that. 

Therefore, I leave this rant in hopes of SM screwing their heads back on the right way...EXO gainging their warmth back, and Kris reconsidering his contract termination...I hope this ends well and on good terms.

#EXO파이팅 #EXOWeAreOne{12}Not11 #NoReplacements #DuizhangComeBack #YGAdoptExo