I don't know why I'm posting it here, I don't even know how I'm handling myself tomorrow. It's supposed to be my first day in college tomorrow and well, there's really no problem except that I'm, maybe a lot, nervous. And the problem that goes with that, I 'usually' handle my situations properly though I really doubt myself for tomorrow. You see, whenever I'm nervous I just tend to stutter a lot. I mess up my words so much and I became I babbling mess. Then, I feel really, really sick- like I want to puke or something but I can't and it feels caught up. Then my stomach feels really sick, I can't even describe it.

I don't know what I should do. I'm just really worried that I won't make any friends and what others say that the best years for them might became the worst for me.

I forgot to mention, I tend to become a negative thinker as well at times like this. I'm just really stressed, and I've never actually break away from my comfort zone. I was so used to staying in my comfort zone that I didn't even got the chance to think of other things. Well, as usual, I'm going to handle this alone and maybe try and not to break down in front of others. And hell, I'm still pissed off about my hair being cut too short than what I had wanted.