I don’t know why but I really don’t feel like doing anything anymore. I feel like I’m too stressed out and even writing which used to be such a loved hobby is starting to be more and more like a chore. It’s giving me more stress and I just can’t seem to find it in myself to open up my laptop and just type a paragraph or two.

I know that most of you are waiting for me to update my chaptered fics and though I want to, I can’t write. My brain seems to be giving up on me and even my BP is skyrocketing nowadays that my doctor’s are shocked. I’ve also been preparing for my mom’s last prayers for her death anniversary and try as I might to sound cheerful, I can’t. Even my usual sarcasm and dry sense of humor seem to be boycotting me. I seriously do think of taking a long break from everything. Not just writing but from work and life in general because I don’t know how much further I can go like this. Maybe I will get my muse some time along the line but till then, I am putting myself and my fics on semi-hiatus.

I know those who read my fics are probably wanting to smack me because I already don’t update for weeks/months and now this….I’m sorry…but try to understand…there is only so much I can do and there are times that one needs to take a step back and just take time to breath…which is exactly what I want to do.

I will update now and then but it won’t be like I had been doing thus far and there probably won’t be the tsunami of new oneshots like I had been posting these past few months…there also won’t be any new stories for a long time possibly. Sorry.

I thank everyone for their support and I hope that I haven’t offended anyone while writing my fics/blogs/comments etc. Take care and for those who are not only my readers but have become my friends these past year…thank you. I really truly love you guys. You have - unknowing perhaps but definitely - taken away some of my burdens by being so nice to me and by letting me unload all my problem to you. I will continue to write to you because our conversations are precious to me and I hope that one day I can help you the way you have helped me.

I will also be coming around to read and post chapter’s if/when I finally get around to writing them. As for the two one-shots I had recently posted, LOSING US is at 7000+ words and ONLY WITH YOU is reaching 5000 words. If I finish it within a week then it will be posted soon otherwise that too will be going o hiatus until after a few weeks/months

Again I’m sorry.

Shivyn