So this is the story of entering the 'worst' fandom. 

I was a Sone (unofficially since IDK if there's membership something like that) and I entered Inspirit and until now I am one. 

So I entered Inspirit fandom with a friend and we became attached to it eversince then and until Exo teasers came out I was consumed by Infinite but I watched Kai's teaser and my friend and I was excited for a new SM band because we like SM groups (but we liked a lot of entertainment or maybe I was the only one that's into SM artists so much but yeh) so we waited but got fed up since it took forever. 

So then came the Mama Era and due to my friend's ability to draw me into whatever she choose, we didn't get into Exo. So yeah, I'm not the type of fan that enters a fandom to the start. 

I was into Infinite and all about them and we were mocking Mama MV everytime (tbvh I didn't watch it first when I entered the fandom but it was the one song that I sing passionately as if life and death depends on it, ISTG)

I browsed a lot of groups except EXO until last year. I just swore to myself never to enter the fandom (but look what I'm doing rn) I've hear a lot of issues, a lot of complains and even Inspirits got into a (slightly) war-ish with Exo stans because of MID and MIL (I was beginning to get into the Exo fandom that time) So, I ignored it. Ignored every bit about Exo but a certain 'Yeol' creeps into me.

Yes, Park Chanyeol got me and that's when I heard about Chanyeol being in the Genie (Jap) MV. I admitted that he was cute and charming but that was it. I see him in Tumblr often paired with a 'bacon' guy and that's when I heard about Baekyeol. I was (and still am) a Myungyeol shipper so it get to me, the guy to guy pairing I mean. So yep. 

Then I saw my big brother learning about History MV and I swear I said 'Eew Exo' to him. (until now I remember that) It was a weird choreo at first and I didn't like the pocket-shaking part odg. Hahaha. That was the last time I think that I got a news over them since I was not really giving them any attention. But then goes Mama 2012 (?) and I was rooting for BAP but discovered about Exo being there and I was like (ugh) and I heard they performed SJ's Sorry Sorry and I swore I was like NO PLEASE NO (I'm laughing rn)

May, 2013 was the time my other (non-kpop) band decided to separate and I was really really devastated that everything hurts even my inside hurts that I went on hiatus for spazzing over kpop just to mourn for that band (they finally broke up last October) so I never knew about Wolf MV from Exo and I was busy preparing for college that I wasn't really into spazzing and ending up sleeping worn out because of stuff about college (but I remember that I was into Teen Top too much and Myungsoo fics I think (?) or BAP or anything not related to Exo)

College enters and I was totally out of Kpop scene since I was having a problem with adjusting to dorm life and classes so I was just spazzing old photos of Infinite without Internet. 

Then I was hospitalized and out of college and havent heard of Infinite coming back with Destiny (I was stuck on MIL era) so then when I was given the time to rest for a year I think, I went back to Kpop and I started with a different band (but Infinite was there) I went from BAP to BTOB and TEENTOP (INFINITE is still there I swear) then I decided to try Exo because I saw this dongsaeng that is really really into Exo (hi seth) so yeah I tried browsing and Chanyeol was there. Hahaha I started with Chanyeol and I read fics about them ( ones)

So that was August or September when I entered the Exo scene. WELCOME TO EXO!

This is when the story starts.

I knew Baekyeol first, I knew Chanyeol first so then I knew Baekhyun. But the funny thing when I was reading that fic, I didn't know who Kyungsoo, Joonmyeon, Jongdae, Yixing, Minseok, Jongin, Zitao, Yi Fan, I knew Luhan and Sehun. I said what's this?! I thought Exo M members are all Chinese?! Why is Luhan just Luhan?! Where's his Korean name?! Wait Minseok is the oldest?! Wait, Luhan is Chinese?! Xiumin and Minseok is one?! So D.O is KYUNGSOO?! Wait, Wu Yi Fan is Kris?! Why is Suho Joonmyeon?! Why Chen?! Sehun is the Maknae?! WHAT THE IS THIS?

So those were the question that was inside my head for a long time. Who would have thought that I will enter this crazy ride. 

My friend warned me of not entering the fandom and I didn't listen. I watched their videos, watched Weekly Idol and watched a lot more of them more than necessary.

I went from Growl MV and I was awed that it was beautiful. Exo is cool. Exo. Minseok is the second one that gotten into me after Chanyeol and I swear that bun is my ETERNAL BIAS until now.

MID Era is the my official era. This was the time I waited for them. I waited for The First Snow and ended up being in love with Kyungsoo and got myself pumped up whenever hearing Kris' rap part in The Star. But I didn't like Kris at first because his face was not my cup of tea (Nae STYLE ANIYA). In Exo's Showtime, I saw something special about Kris but ignored it but he's damn funny and his 'cold city guy' came crashing down right in front of me just like all the members including Tao and Yixing. But Kyungsoo get me so riled up with Exo ISTG.

Then came Overdose Era, the era that get me late at night spazzing about everything even the leaks and even all of them got into me. I was torn into my two fandoms but Exo was dominant and I was worried.

Exo's 2 year anniversary is my eight months with them. 2 years with them is not for me so I celebrated it with 8 months with Exo. I was not proud by it since I was the ANTI-EXO at first. I was the Exo is not my style. 

When I watched the Overdose MV I was really really into the M version more and like the fact that Kris was just chillin when it was his dance break. I swore I tweeted about it and admitted the fact that I was beginning to like Kris' chillin style. I was too happy with INSTAGRAM ERA because of galaxy_fanfan. He was beginning to creep up to my bias list (no lie ISTG). 

Then came this two hard days, two hard days of depressing rumors and depressing news. At first I didn't care about it because I was blinded with the overdose era that the news was a joke to me. I never thought this day would come. Infinite CB was announced and I was very very anticipating Exo Stans and Inspirits interactions. I was like 'bring the popcorns. this will be fun'. I never thought of losing a memeber. I never ever thought of that.

But Exo happened too fast, Daesang happened too fast, Exo's fandom grew faster, Exo grew too fast that a stop wasn't even needed. Injuries came out, Sasaengs grew out of control. Exo is the fandom that grew faster and faster and with just two days, two long days, the world stops and the galaxy became 'WE ARE ONE'. 

I was not there when DBSK had a problem because I was not able too. I didn't know about Hangeng but I know him from SJ. The galaxy ocean stops because of this news and ISTG I cried. Not the ugly sobbing one but the quiet one. The I-AM-UTTERLY-LOST-RIGHT-NOW. I comforted the first person that got me into this fandom because she is a cassie, an elf. I was comforting myself alone because I don't even know what to do. I was one of the lost stars that came into the fandom late but it hit me. Wu Yi Fan creep into my list too slow, too slow that I was not aware that this will hurt me. This is not what I want. 

I still believe. 'WE A12E One' is still there. I know it. I know it. I'm rooting for it even if it hurts me. I'm hoping. I don't want it to be OT11 because every member of Exo is a part of 'WE ARE ONE'. I am so proud that I came to this group. So proud that I was able to see them grew even if I wasn't there at first. I love Exo. 

'WE ARE ONE' is not just a slogan. 'WE ARE ONE' is family. 

EXO fighting! Let us love. Let's be there until the end.

I WILL NEVER EVER GONNA LEAVE THIS FANDOM.

OT12 will be OT12

-janelle