So I was just staring at my dear Onew, just staring and admiring him for his quirky, cute, wonderful....*sigh* his perfect everything. I love him. So much. And then, I admit and very embarrassingly, I just started crying and crying and crying and then it turned into full sobbing because i had a chance to see him at the KBS concert in LA earlier in May, AND I COULDN'T GO AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN PERFECT AND MY HEART BROKE  DX

He's worse than any guy I dated or liked. WORSE. Because just keeps breaking my heart over and over and over and over by just being himself and I can't love him in person.

UGH

/dies/ 

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and as much as i love Onew, i think i may also be in love with my friend Tyler o.o 

OTL