hi to ghosts. 'cause i don't think any of you would bother to read this since like my posts are never fun. haha. kay, but still whatever. idc. so hi.

i'll just get straight to the point. idek if i should tell or not 'cause some say we might jinx the goodness if we talk bout it? lol idk, i'm not really superstitious but yeah. haha. where to start? i have no idea really.

idk if you read my life update but if you did, then i'm pretty sure you know what i'm ranting about. haha, yep. my crush. ;; if you're a boy, i just reaalllyyyy wanna say, you guys are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay confusing than a girl when they pms.

haha, lol okay so, what am i soooo happy and excited about? we were like chatting earlier and he said he wanted to come over 'cause like he wanted to eat what i had for lunch but he chickened out and said that he was shy and that he didn't know where i lived. both of us live in the same neighbourhood but different streets so when i told him that my house is near school he said, "mine's near school too. :p" so i was like i know 'cause he goes to and fro sch by walking just like i do. and when i told him where i lived, he went like, "ohh! i know where that is but wait, if you walk... do you walk alone or with your friends?" ofc, i walk alone tho. 'cause my besties have their parents to pick them up and as for me, my dad's busy working.

so, we went on and he asked, "isn't it dangerous?" and i went like, omg. is he worried? but i ignored it and said it is, i guess but only when it rains. then he said, "you walk in the rain too?" so i said i had to 'cause nobody can pick me up or wtv and he said, "maybe one day i could walk you home?"

is it me or am i really dying? so i told him that i didn't wanna burden him 'cause we walk different directions and he said that it wasn't a problem at all. omgomgomg. /hyperventilates. what the actual ? idk if he's playing or wtv but like who says that to their crush?

'cause like the other day, he texted my bestie and said that he didn't want to give high hopes at me so he told her not to tell me that he knows about my feelings. and poof, he goes, "hey i could walk you home. it's not far." just wtaf. i know i should like be happy about it but this ain't cool bro. it's like so weird. i mean, isn't walking me home giving me hopes that he can actually be my boyfriend? lol, idk but ugh. boys are so confusing. really. what do you guys think in your head? besides or or jgv or wtv that exists. somebody help me. gosh.