Blog #13: SOS

Slipping

I'm slipping

Scrambling for a grip on the edge of reality

Risking falling into the unknown

Trying to hold on

Just hold on

To the safety of the rope connecting me to what's real and what's fiction

What's beyond reason

Beyond rationality

Beyond tangibility

The rope connected to the cliff I dangle from

Trying to pull up from the rope and on to the cliff

That rope is fraying

Fraying
Fraying

Getting so thin

So weak

So small

Yet it does not snap

It stays
It holds

Yes the rope does lurch

It sways
It spins
It wavers
It turns
It moves
It shifts

But it still holds me in place

Thus the problem that has arose:

I cannot climb up from my place on this rope. Any movement can risk a snap yet balances the chance of getting to the cliff

On to ration
On to reality
On to sanity

But I cannot stay here for much longer. The rope will eventually give way and I shall plummet downwards

Towards the unknown
Towards the darkness
Towards the insanity I try to fight off

So what shall I do?

Do I stay and wait for the inevitable fall?

Or do I risk the chance of rising up to sanity but possibly falling and slipping farther down the rope?

**this is an accurate metaphor of my life and my problem right now. What do you people think I should do?

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annawhimsy #1 May 12, 2014 01:04:18

Here, have a random funny picture. http://www.deviantart.com/art/Equivalent-Exchange-453215425

annawhimsy #2 May 11, 2014 20:08:36

Close your eyes, breathe, stop thinking about whatever your problems are. Think of the future, and don't just think of the worst possible outcome. Think of the people that would miss you if you let go, and think of the small things that make you happy. There's a crack of happiness in the side of the cliff, and you can find it and pry it open until it gets bigger and bigger and you can use it to climb up. Don't commit suicide because that's a permanent solution (it's not even really a solution) to a temporary problem. Please.