I could not understand myself why i am feeling this way. Been bottling this up since 4.4.14. I need to let it out. Why am i feeling so heartbroken over Tiffany dating Nickhun? Some said they have been dating for 4 years. But why i can't accept this????

i was able to accept SooNa dating news after a few hours. But Tiffany news is just..... i know that i do not stand a chance..it just make me not to bother much about snsd news now. Maybe i will get over this some day. I need to get over this. I should support them as a sone right. But i just can't at this moment. It just hurt so bad. Very bad.

I just need to let this out. I think reading any taeny stories does not feel right any more thou i know it is fictional. But why.. why i am so hard up on this. Why i was expecting Taeyeon dating and i wwill be fine. But Tiffany....  why can't i??? Am such a bad sone..

Not listening to any snsd songs for now. Do not want to know their schedule or shows or whatever about them for now. I am bad. I will come back better. But now let me drown in my own feels. 

Ps: please do not go cray cray on Taeyeon's IG people.