A very dramatic birthday message to my beloved....

 

 

 

@AllRiseSilver *clears throat* *trembles* -- I didn't know it would be this hard--

DEAREST LEE HYUKJAE,

These past few days, I've been so down I don't know what to do with my life anymore. Well, that was when you gave me a light to start anew again. *sighs* I know you won't be able to read this, or if so, you won't even understand it. But I've been making this effort every year to show how important you are to me, even my littlest efforts. You are not just my idol, Mr. Lee Hyukjae. You mean A LOT... as in a lot to me. You are my everything. I can't even imagine my life without Lee Hyukjae in it. I'm sorry if I was the one who became emotional. I was just not entirely informed on how you've been through a lot. As the years pass by, I wasn't aware that things also have to change. I didn't realize I've became more and more mature. I didn't realize you're becoming more and more aged. I know you'd have to go on a military service soon, and also I have to prepare myself for it. :') (sad smile)

AIGOO MY LEE HYUKJAE!!!!! I dunno how you've led me in this unrequited love. Hahahahaha but one thing's for sure... I TRULY LOVE YOU, not as a fan, but as a LOVING friend.

CHOP!CHOP! Lee Hyukjae, honestly,I am not used on calling you Eunhyuk. Hahahahahaha I'm becoming more personal eh? Well, I don't care what other people say about me to you. It's because they don't know what WE've been through. Yes, WE. Because when you came into my life, you've been in it in every step of the way...

FIRST MENSTRUATION

FIRST PUPPY LOVE

FIRST INFATUATION

FIRST SELF-DOUBT

FIRST SELF-REALIZATION

FIRST REJECTION

FIRST ACCEPTANCE

FIRST uh-ZONED

FIRST LOVE

FIRST HEARTBREAK

and finally, FIRST STEP ON SLOWLY REACHING MY DREAMS

You were always there Lee Hyukjae...not physically, but emotionally and spiritually. I may not be the best girl who could give you everything you want and say, but I can brag to you the love that I've been harbouring for you. Thank you, my anchovy-dilis-myeolchi, my monkey, my Spencer Lee, my Jewel guy, my precious SILVER, my dancing machine, my lead rapper, my everything, my all, my guy... simply my Lee Hyukjae.

Thank you for your prominent jawline, cute adam's apple, funny wrinkles under your eyes, mole on your arm, 6-pack (impeccable) abs, broad shoulders, y collar bones, and most of all, thank you for your gummy smile that brightens my day.

ILOVEYOU AND ICANTLIVEWITHOUTYOU

God bless you Lee Hyukjae!

I love you... until my last breath.

I'll be here to support you always :).

Hope to see you soon :3.

 

Lots a love, Jannela Ruby Esmayan Garriel (@.anchoviousJAE)

 

Post Script: Marry soon! A non-showbiz one please...