Post Birthday Blog

Yeah... so here I am... a year older again. -_-

Actually, yesterday was my birthday and yeah, I was not able to go online.

These past few years, I've been having my birthday blues and I rlly dn't knw why. All that I remember was that when I started having my growth spurts, I became so sensitive and emotional and lonely. And I also think that I've matured a little :D (THANK GOODNESS SAKEEEEEE!!!!~~~) because there are things that Lee Hyukjae alone cannot make me alright ( OH MY GOODNESS BABY YOU'RE STILL MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE OH EM EFF I'M SO VERY TRULY SORRY BABY :''''''''''''''''''(((((((((( ) although I can say that HE IS STILL MY LIFE PERIOD. It's just that I'm so busy with my senior year now and I am not able to give time to my fangirling stuffs. And with that, I could conclude that I'm lot more mature now :D.

Anyway, I'm still a crybaby. As usual.

I cried yesterday. A lot. I started to reminisce everything that hurt me in the whole 16 years of my existence...

The loss of my father is still the most painful.

I miss him... A LOT. I learned to not cry for him and forget him every now and then. But yesterday, I longed for him again. I cried because of him again. I MISS YOU PAPA :( SO MUCH!!!

Well, as I said just like last year, there are still a lot of things to be thankful for.

We had a simple celebration yesterday and it was enough for me. My family is suffering in financial crisis and I appreciate that they were able to buy a cake for me.

My BEST GIRLFRIENDS paid me a surprise (although I somewhat knew about it XD) visit yesterday and I was beyond happy. We had a LOT of FUN even though we have a food shortage. :3 hahahahahaha

Many greeted me and I feel so much loved again despite the heartaches I'm PERSONALLY experiencing. :3 yeah.

And of course, my day wouldn't be complete without my mom's call. ♥ That has been the best part of my birthday ever since she worked abroad.

AND... OMF... sdkjfhkvserhoiutjnmfkljsekfmlkvsajdkfasfmivawjpmfiosdjfjamoiwe RAYMUND ABRACOSA RETWEETED MY TWEET WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!! asldhsehmrhfsjkeghnfgsdfg (I'm a discreet fan of his :3 hahahahaha)

Hmmm... And the last thing I did yesterday? I prayed. I talked to my one and only Saviour. I thanked Him for making me exist in this world. I thanked Him for all the possessions I have and for making me meet every loved one I know for a reason. And I wished for a successful carreer... and a happy (stressed) college life next year. I thanked Him for everything. For always saving my life from all the things that make me want to give up.

And lastly, afterall the changes I've gone through my growth spurt years, one hasn't changed... It's my love for them: