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Hi again everyone...

It's been less than a week since I decided I'd take a break and also removed all my stories. Thank you to everyone who commented and sent me lovely words of advice and encouragement. I'm sorry for taking down my stories so hastily and to make up for that, I've begun slowly putting them back up to read. I believe the only ones left to put up are That Girl, Which Boy?, the alternate endings and Kidulthood 100%. I'm sorry I haven't replied to you all, truthfully I don't know what to say. I've taken on the things that you guys have said, and your words have helped me feel a lot better about myself. It's feeling after all.

I figured I should update you all a little, especially on the events of this week and because I feel like I should let you guys know anyway. Writing this is also a nice way for me to really let it all go and come to terms with what's happening with my future. 

I applied to 3 universities and they were 3 of the most renowned for the arts. One is basically THE place to go if you want to go into Fashion. Another is THE place for Film and TV. The last is known for general arts. I was accepted into two of these universities, just not the one for fashion. So yes, I do have places to go to and yes, they are wonderful places to study but I suppose I was too cooped up with the idea of this one place. 

So now what am I doing? At the moment, I'm headed for the university renown for film and tv. However, I'm awaiting feedback from the university I love so much to understand exactly why I wasn't accepted. It's nice because my teacher at school is behind me 100% and has said that because the situation of my friend getting accepted and not me is so bizarre, she's very willing to get in contact with the university should they give me shoddy feedback. I'm also waiting to see if I can secure a place through clearing, a process where applicants have places offered to them that were previously given to the first lot of acceptees. It's all very try your luck and obviously my luck isn't fabulous but hey! Worth a shot! 

I know it's not great to be still held onto the dream of going to this one place. If I were anyone else, I'd be telling myself to move on and try to accept this other university. However, I believe I've been wronged and if God/ Karma is going to be on my side, good things should happen either way. If I don't manage to get into this university, I know that it's not the end of the world. I'm still going to a renowned art college.

As for my friend, we've talked things through and confessed our feelings. She felt miserable and cried when she found out we wouldn't be together. I told her I wanted to kill her and strangle her in jealousy. We've since bought lunch together and I've also dyed her hair blonde and had her stay over at mine. It's safe to say that we're still best friends.

This has been a long and unneeded post but    I guess I just wanted to say that just as my stories are slowly returning, I will too. I won't be leaving, I still have a lot to give and I'll see you guys soon.

haneul-gateun x