I loathe her, it is probably not the best word to describe it. You really think we are going to be good friends? You really think that I am lucky to have someone look like me? I don't feel proud to be a twin. I sincerely hate her flaws. Everytime I hear her airy voice, I hate it, I put on my earphones to block them out. Only to be reminded that I have the exact same voice that some other people may hate. Everything of her reminds me of my flaws, so annoying. A real life mirror reflecting your flaws. 

I do not have the same personality, why wouldn't people understand? We are two different people, even if we are identical twins. Genes wouldn't determine your personality. Even when we grow and I see how our faces are different, people still do not know. The flaws, she is whiny, unappreciative. She whines about her performances, she does not want to perform, when I am dying for another chance. She does not understand why I want to be a professional, she does not know what to do if I faint. She just looks at me. What? What am I supposed to do? Even then I can hear her voice, I can feel her eyes drilling holes on me. 

I do not want to have her friends, nor will I let her have my friends. She irks me. This is why when there was a choice to go to a different secondary school, I tried to apply for my dream school, not the same school with my teachers. They still try to convince me to go to her school jokingly, because the books are cheaper, the facilities are better. Even though I didn't go to my dream school, but it is okay without her. It has been years since I am not referred to as someone's twin, and I would like to keep it that way. 

Despite the flaws, I remember the times when people liked her voice more than mine. She was singing a Chinese song and people thought that she sang well. I sang a Japanese song and they didn't say anything. I thought I would be credited for singing in a different language. My father calls me out for singing Korean songs when 'singing Chinese songs can help improve your Chinese'. But this is my preference and I would prefer to keep it that way. Be refered to as the best dancer in the studio, or the state, even the country. Be thought of as a good singer who is entirely different from my sister, though our voices are similar. What if the guy I liked back then had liked my sister instead? Wouldn't that be embarrassing? 

I think I got more distant from her when we started going to different schools. But it's okay, because I do not want a childish girl tagging me along, trying to make friends with my friends, and attracting the guys that I like. When I say childish, I cringe because I am reminded that if she is childish, then I am one too.