more really ugly blogposts bcz mobile ok yehet but holy the boy interactions ive been having today are off the chart and my feeble little idiot heart cannot take it anymore ok

boy one : moment one :

he's this really cute older guy in my japanese class who used to sit next to me before the new seating arrangments and earlier today I was kind of bumped about it because we usually have a lot of interactions together (sharing books, talking, sharing candy ok dont judge me, him asking me for help, me asking him for help, sharing glances, laughs omf this teasing little I swear) and I was sad of not sitting with him. he also wasnt there at the beginning of the class and I was sitting alone. but then during the first 20 minutes - gUESS WHO COMES BACK??

OH YES. SENPAI. YES HIS NICKNAME IS SENPAI ALRIGHT SHH.

and I was like, "oh he's here. now he gets to sit far away--" then the best thing happened ok. maybe not to him, but to me. he significantly forgot his worksheet today ok. sOMEHOW, COINCIDENTLY

AND MIYAMOTO SENSEI DID WHAT??? WHAT???

she had him sit beside me and we shared ok. leaning close and working with one sheet. oh lord. he has the prettiest hands and just try not to die when your hands brush up against each other or he asks to see your phone and just keeps looking and looking and touching and augh. that smile. I cant. dont smile at me you ---

boy two : moment two :

he's an older korean boy that I used to be really good friends with. our or my story about him is in one of my eleven question blogposts so go ahead and check it if you want.

aNYWAYS BASICALLY we used to be good friends but because we're different ages we drifted. after math (my last block) I was talking with my friend chelsea, heading down the hall. his class is two doors down from ours so I usually see him there. this time though, the moment he walks out - we'rd literally walking next to each other and im trying not to get his attention. I was just being me and singing some dumb song with chelsea - but I knew he knew I was there and vise versa. and you know when you can see the hesitance in someone or something? yeah I felt like I saw that because before he sped ahead of us, he turned around, flashed that dumb handsome smile and said "hey."

like no dont hey me if youre gonna be so ing cute ok gTFO MY HEART--

boy three : final moment :

the last boy is younger korean boy who I used to talk a lot with back in seventh grade. the thing here is that we also had our own relationship - over anime tho LOOL. and I remember not being into kpop stuff then so I wasnt really into the korean culture. back then, he'd always ask me to teach him how to draw and it was that cute feeling of a puppy following you around.

he always called me stupid. always called me baka, bakayaro, dumby. and would go, "aish" all the time around me.

and one time, he wrote my name is korean.

another - he said something in korean when I told him to speak and even though I didnt understand it now, im pretty sure I heard "babo" somewhere in there.

he went back to korea during eighth or ninth grade for him. never got the chance to say goodbye. but then-- I saw him in the hall; he's taller now, a lot cuter. and holy . he is kpop material and I wanted to talk to him soosoososooo badly you dont even understand.

until today.

because while I wait for the bus with my friends, there he is walking across the field and getting closer and closer to one of my younger friends. he keeps walking, makes it to ryan and then at that moment our eyes meet, he smiles, he waves and has that, "hey I remember you!!!" kind of face.

I walk up to him and ask, "do you remember me?" as he keeps walking towards us. I just about died around here because once his now puberty changed voice sounds (holy he sounds like key im not even joking ok) he said this:

"yah- danica wong."

no, not just danica. DANICA WONG. WHOLE ING NAME. LIKE KDRAMA NAME. AND HE HAS THE ACCENT AND EVERYTHING. HE REMEMBERS MY FULL NAME--

the way he used to say it back then augh holy . and then I start bringing out my kpop bcz seriously, he needs to know. he needs to know I am no longer nihongo biases but korean biased too.

LOOL ASKED HIM TO CALL ME NOONA

"shuttup~"

ASKED HIM FOR SOME AEGYO

"shuttup~"

then he asked me if I still watched anime and ofc I said yes. agdkmama. but bae doesnt watch anime anymore. ;;;; poop.

as we sat on the bus, he's farther to my left and because my fren oliver is a dickk I couldnt reallly talk to him. im turned so that im talking to oliver, I see lakon (le younger korean) do a ing 360 and looks at me straight on - our eyes locked and im like wtf??

I said, "what?" and he just shook his head, smiling and looked away. but I could hear what he was ing saying and asking ryan.

"where's her house?" he said (or I think)

"oh she lives farther down-" ryan responded.

and im like no what no how it might not even be about me but still he just kept looking and I was gonna shoot him bcz bOYS WHY ARE ALL THESE ASIAN BOYS SO GOODLOOKINGLY CUTE I CANT AHDJNAKABKKA

and that is my story today ok these boys are seriously trying to damage me. I cant. I cant. I wont. I cant. noona doesnt want. oppa pls stop. just j j jj just-- AGDHSKLA WHE EZES ;A;

ITS ALSO BAD THAT YOUNGER KOREAN BOY CALLED ME SHORT TOO IF HE STARTS PATTING MY HEAD LIKE HE DID THAT ONE TIME I WILL JUMP OK I ING SWEAR IT TO ALL OF YOU--- ;/////;