An amazingly long letter for Jung Daehyun

Dearest Jung Daehyun,
  

 I think this may be the first time I’m writing a letter for someone I admire, so forgive me if sometimes I don’t make sense (I’m talking as if you are ever gonna read this, but a girl can dream). My love for you was not instantaneous. It was not love at first sight. Hell, even my love for B.A.P was not instantaneous. I became a Kpop fan in 2011, so I’m fairly new to the industry. I started liking huge groups – the really famous ones. I stanned those big groups for two years. Last year, though, when I was with other Kpop fans from my university, I overheard them talking a lot about B.A.P. I knew of your group, because I’m usually updated on Kpop news. I knew of your group, I even tried watching some of your music videos. You were all really aggressive for me. I was not into that kind of music, so I just continued on stanning the famous groups that I was comfortable with. But a lot of the Kpop fans I met really liked your group, and even told me that you shot your music video in my country, so I was curious. I started watching music videos and searching lyrics to your songs. Imagine my surprise when I read that Bang Yongguk participates in writing your songs. I’m a er for artists like that. I saw your song lyrics, and I instantly knew that your group was different from all the groups that plague the Kpop industry. 
  

 It was not hard to reel me in after that. I watched ALL of your music videos and variety show appearances. To be honest, though, you were not my first bias in your group. After watching Killing Camp, I started noticing you more, because who wouldn’t? You showed your true personality in that show, and that personality attracted me, because I knew that we would click if we ever talk in real life (that’s if I magically acquire the knowledge to speak Korean). I kept denying that you were my bias, but after a month, I finally admitted to myself that I’ve fallen for your quirky charms.
  

 Unlike others, I was not attracted by your good looks. I was attracted by you as a whole. Your loudness, sass, friendliness, and happiness (sometimes even your rare-to-find-niceness). Your good looks were just a bonus. And your voice. Your voice. Yep. Your voice. I can’t describe it. It’s both rough and smooth. Soft and strong. Concrete and velvet. I love it. I honestly think that you are one of the best vocalists in the entire world of Korean pop, and I’m happy that I’m your fan. After a few more months, B.A.P managed to be my top bias group in all of Kpop, trampling over more popular and much more established groups from big companies. And you, Jung Daehyun, managed to be my ultimate bias. The person I admire the most. The one that I picked among hundreds of others.
    Yesterday, I saw you crying. For the first time. In public. My heart broke. I cried, too. I cried along with you. I knew you were not the type to cry like that, but it’s okay. Crying is not a sign of weakness.  You said you were thankful. I was thankful. I am thankful. I’m thankful that I found you. I’m thankful that I found all six of you. Thank you for everything that you have given us. Others may think that you are insignificant. That there are way more popular groups in Kpop to be fans of. But for us, your fans, your loving BABYs, you will be the brightest stars of all. You have no idea how you have inspired me to follow my dreams. You have no idea how much you made me smile. You have no idea how you helped me be strong. Your music is such a huge impact in my life and in countless other people’s lives, too.
    You are stars. I’m just a normal person. But at least at night, when it’s the darkest and scariest, I can look up to you. See how you shine. Then I can smile. And carry on with life.

                                    Forever Yours,
                                        Jum

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OH MY GOD. THIS WAS SO SWEET. I CAN'T-

I really wish he could read this. T_T It's so thoughtful. And I think it gave me diabetes.