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Hello.. Sorry for those who subscribes in both of my acc stories.. Sorry I didn't update much or update them late cause I am busy with my college now and I'm currently on my stress/depress state... Don't worry I am fine if you guys are wondering :)

*sigh*

When I was little, I was not like now but as time goes by I've becoming stress and depress lately. Sometimes I would just skip my meals or don't even think of eating my meals and sometimes I would cut my wrist to make me feel better and forget what had happen but it didn't. I would sometimes cry in my sleep for no reason. Which is weird?

I didn't even told my parents or anyone cause I don't want them to worried about me but my friends saw the scars on my wrist and ask why did I do it? What happen? and all that. But I always ask myself why are they worried about me? They are just faking cause they feel pity for me and all that.

Ps. Don't worry I am fine now I guess? Don't worry I am trying not to cut my wrist and I can't promise to not do it again.

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Kais_Squid #1 Mar 11, 2014 11:17:24

I was just the same as you three years ago, skipping meals and so on... but with time it will actually be fine. It more like a phase a lot go through. Some make it easily while others take more time and pain.

You just need to confide yourself to someone, it will help to lessen the waves of emotions.

milkteacafe #2 Mar 10, 2014 11:33:05

I feel like we can relate to each other here:)
I am very similar to you. I used to be really happy and cheerful but now I am constantly on downers and thinking about running away and sometimes even taking my life but I have my ways of dealing with them instead (I'm afraid it'll make me sound weird so I won't say it xD). I hide my sadness from everyone and have a counselor secretly.

What stops me from ending my life or running away is that as time goes by things get fixed. It might not be noticeable yet or it might feel like things are becoming worse but they do. Plus, what happens if you end you do something and stop yourself from having the life you were supposed to have - which is most probably a long happy one.

I hope you become happier as so do I, but just know that even though I don't personally know you, know I am here for you. Perhaps talking to someone you don't fully know would help you because they don't know you enough to judge you?

Message me if you ever feel down and want someone to be there for you. I'm not saying you have to if you don't want too. :)

dyotokki #3 Mar 10, 2014 11:00:57

I do feel depressed lately too anyway i just want to say fighting ^^