Sometimes I like to read good fanfiction, then ask myself why I did not continue writing. I ask myself why I cannot produce good work. I like to immerse myself in a book, let myself be carried away by the overwhelming emotions. To be able to relate to the characters of the story and get so emotional.

I question myself, why did I participate in so many dance activities, so much dance activities that I am going crazy. I wonder how it would be like to write a good story, to have those "feels" while writing a story. Like what I felt when I wrote romance fanfiction.

I do not regret dancing, it is just one of those things I ask myself. Even though I like my life. Even though I am starting to like my math teachers. What she says does make sense. Like her statement on divorce, saying that divorce is a cheap way to solve problems. Which is true in the case of my parents. If they were willing to understand each other better and talk more, perhaps they wouldn't think of divorcing. Perhaps they would have been better role models. But there are many exceptions to my teacher's statement.

I have been thinking of getting a job. To pay for my dance fees. Even though there is no need to pay for them now.