Come on, admit it, you read the title and was like...yeah! I want to know about your life. XP Isn't that something we all do? We always want to know the intimate details of a person's life, specifically a person we've never met before. Yup, we've all done it. Anyway, so yes, I'm dealing with personal demons right now. They're names are Ravi, N, Hyuk, Ken, Hongbin and Leo. These f**king little devils just won't leave me alone!!!! *shakes head rapidly* I mean seriously, there is nothing that I can do to make them go away! It's so bad! My feels! My feels! I just can't live with my f**king feels anymore!!!! *sobs* Okay, so I haven't been a true VIXX fan since they debuted. I found out about them when Hyde came out and I really liked them, but at the time I was into other bands. I believe at that time it was Infinite, B.A.P., Super Junior, and I think another band but I can't remember which. (But I also was going through other bands sporadically as well).

Oh! It was Block B! I remember now. And then shortly after that I became the Nu'est L.O./\.E fangirl that I am. But after Nu'est kinda went on break, I was looking for other bands to get into and it was about that same time that VIXX came out with VOODOO Doll. And of course I remembered them from Hyde and On and On and Super Hero. So I was like, I'll watch. And I watched their original MV for the song (not the clean ver.) and I fell so hard for them! It's been like that since...god when did VOODOO Doll come out? It hasn't been that long since I've become a diehard Starlight.....three or four months now. And I've watched their MTV diary and totally found so much Navi and Keo in it!!! *cries in joy* I also watched their Plan V Diary which was freaking hilarious! And of course, I watch VIXX TV as well. They bad thing is, I can't get enough of them. My feels are just so strong! I've watched at least ten different episodes of MTV Diary at least ten times. I've wanted Plan V at least five times from start to finish.

And VIXX TV I've watched all their videos at least two (and I've watched some of those videos a few more times than the others) *sighs*.... O...O...Ottokaji! ~Ottokaji, ottokaji, o...tto...ka...ka...kaji~ Yeah....>.> I have watched almost every video on youtube on them, most with Engsubs, but some with none. And I find myself able to pick out words here and there and know the jest of what they're saying. And not just the English words they use, but the Korean ones. Which I've never watched a group so much I can start picking up the korean. So yeah...this is huge for me! But what do I do? I'm so in need of feeling these feels that I've even watched my wonderful bias N play the kissing game with a girl, and I loved it! I truly loved it and I get jealous easily!

Though I know I shouldn't, but that's a different blog for a different time! lol And I watched Vixx share a special day with Girls Day when they performed Trouble Maker's Now. It was so amazing and I loved it. I really loved watching N dance with Minah, but she's my favorite from Girls Day so I think I accept that more. I don't know. I feel so freaking conflicted that I don't know what to do sometimes. Question: How do you all get over your feels? When you've run out of videos to watch and nothing new has been posted, how do you get over your feels? Do you read fanfics? But what happens when the fanfics run out. Do you write your own? Ottokaji guys?! I'm dying here! I need to figure something out or N, Ravi and Ken are going to be the death of me!!! *weeps* Anyway, those are my personal demons I've been fighting. I know as soon as I get ride of them I'll have more personal demons to fight again.

On a side note, fanfics are going to be slow in updating because 1.) personal demons! 2.) school midterms 3.) working almost every Tuesday 4.) *sighs* procrastination 5.)...is there any more excuses? Probably not XP Anyway, my class is about to start, so I'm heading off. I am almost done with the second chapter to It's Not Alright. I'm so glad so many people are enjoying it! I'm enjoying it too. I do take a bit longer to write scenes, just because I want it to be really good. I've been working for the past four or five days. But it will be done soon! Please expect it! Other fanfic updates will follow. Please do answer my question, I'm in serious need of backup for fighting these feels and tame them enough so that I can freaking think! Thanks guys!