So here I am, finally decided to come back here in AFF and continue where I left off..
I believe most of my friends already forgot who am I,, Briefly, am used to be Jongkeyshipper08 but now as you guys can see, I changed my username to Ultimatefujoshii.. Am still in love with Jongkey and all, but yeah, I need to do some changes XD

Last year has been hectic for me. My life has gone all over the place and I missed a lot of things.

I guess 2013 is just not a good year for me.

I was drowned in my depression I've been surpressing since I was young.

I missed my supposed-to-be-uni life.

And I lost someone I treasured the most.

But in that year, I also got to know who's my real friends are, who really cares for me and who really appreciate my existence no matter how invisible I want myself to be.

I got to learn new experiences (bedridden in a hospital, counseling, theraphy), new friends and a whole new me.

It was hard at first. Juggling with my depression, meds, prep-school and theraphy.

I missed a lot of classes because of my appointments.

Need to control the urge to break down in school.

And the anxious feeling of people judging me.

However, I guess its gonna be fine now. Things are gradually getting better and I am recovering.

Prep school was a torture with its subjects... but I've faced hell so yeah, 3.33 for someone who missed almost half of her first semester is not that bad isn't it?

Me and my boyfriend for almost 4 years has broke up and he recently engaged to someone new. I was hurt, of course but I just take it as, it's not our destiny to be together, He can go. I've let many people go anyway.

Things that happened has created a stronger me, I guess.

Am still living under the prescriptions but no longer dependent to it.

Aima, am already climbing the steps :)