If you're wondering who is Kim Ryeowook, he is one of the main vocalists in Super Junior. If you're wondering what is a super junior then gtfo, lol.

Kim Ryeowook is simply a man, who stays in my heart for almost a year already. Yes, you can laugh at me, it's only almost a year. But trust me, my love for him is pure, innocent, and sincere. I don't want him to love me back, because that's impossible. Besides, I have a boyfriend in real life too, that I love as much as Ryeowook. 

I never hope about impossible things, I don't even dare to think about Ryeowook being my boyfriend. Our age's difference, is 14 or 15 years old. Yes, I kinda love an ajussi. But is it wrong? Love is always an unpredictable thing, age, religions, families, background, can't never tear true love apart.

But even though how pure, how much, how innocent, how sincere, how cute my love for him, he won't know me. He barely knows my existence, and I barely have the chance to meet him face to face. Watch Super Junior's concert is always my goal, but Super Junior has already come to Indonesia twice and I don't even think of buying the ticket. 

There are nights, days, and daydreams that I spent thinking about him. Daydreaming about him. Dreaming about him. Crying because our chance to meet is just too low to write. The chance that he will know my existence, just as low as the first. Breathing the same air as him? Haha, I need a lot of luck and money. 

Love is a beautiful thing, believe in it. But I think love doesn't suppose to make you suffer and hurt? No, I'm not saying I'm suffering or hurt because I love a man who will has , cuddle, kiss, hug with a person, anyone but me. No I'm not. It's just...

You know, I'm a really realistic girl. Realistic fangirl. Meeting Ryeowook, or Super Junior, or EXO, or Girls' Generation, or even infamous Korean indie bands, have never been my resolution of new year, and a top wish. Never. I know, I can dream things and imagine as much as I want. But I think I'm too realistic to even think about that.

Sometimes I want to stop being a realistic girl, that always thinking harshly whenever there's a fangirl saying "I'm oppars' boyfriend"

But this way of thinking, in some ways, I like it. It means I will never say bulls like "Oppa is kissing someone, it means someone throws 101301932983237829379273189 daggers at me!!!11!!11" so what? Will your beloved oppa kiss you? Will your beloved oppa, read your tweet/status/message like that? Ha-ha, amazing.

Lol like the first post, I will accept whatever Ryeowook's uality. It doesn't matter if he loves another man, I will just hope for the best and wish the man that he love will give Ryeowook anything, especially happiness and love. But it will better if he is normal and straight, loves a girl right? But that means I will envy that girl, and silently wet my pillow. If someday, his dating news with x being confirmed by SM, trust me, I will open my twitter and tweet something like this.

"Ryeowook oppa is finally gets a person to date. Congrats!" like a congratulations, very sincere like my love for him. With a huge smile :D. "I hope you two the best, longlasting until you two get married, have children, being grandparents until death parts both of you!" My hopes for you will sincere, but doesn't it pinch your heart a little? A part of you, a little part of you, will always secretly hoping that you can be with your ultimate bias, right?

But Ryeowook, I know you have a lot of fans like me too. I'm not the only fan of yours that is really faithful and sincere. I'll still an anynomous person who loves you deeply with sincerity. But Ryeowook oppa, the only thing I am certain,

Someday, we'll meet. Whether you are still as popular as this, or more popular, or even a star in the past, I will wave to you and confess all of my feelings. Wait for me, my love.