dramatic title ? yeah *bump shoulder with you*

I never thought that it could happen to me. Before, I just read it in fanfic. Its my fault to willingly open my closed heart for years.

cliche ? yehet.

does me being your mistress(not really) satisfied you a lot?

what will your girlfriend say if she know about this? about us?

I know, I should follow my instict, that give me this fishy thingy feeling when you said I cant tell anybody.

but I, being a stupid girl, ignore it all.

Who the didnt feel happy when their crush have the same feeling to us ?

Didnt you have girlfriend ? No you said. Okay I'm happy -a little bit- and being rainbow here and there.

Why the hell I cant tell anybody ? Will cause an issue if I did.

But this smart girl wont buy it, "aaahhh~ you scared that this news will come too your girlfriend eh?"

In playful way I asked, a serious answer he gave.

"actually I got fed up with my girlfriend, she talk, play, joking around with other boys but not me, his boyfriend. She's such a . All my friend asked me to break up with her and get over all this"

but noooo~ being a good bf he is, he's still with his '' gf. And at the same time, he and I have some kind of relationship, which is I  cant even explain what to call it -.- I  have crush on him, he have crush on me.

Sometime I felt like used by him, I just a place where he can get all his stress out,and when he'sdone he will go all lovey dovey with his gf.

No matter how much I want to stop this relationship, I cant. I've crush on him for almost 3 years. I dont want to be nappeun yeoja, because his gf is a nice girl, even to me; her senior and a stranger.

I know, I shouldnt accept it at the first place, who am I to be crush by? I'm just a  wallflower girl, who will not notice by other people.

I'm being selfish here. I'm such a . I felt like mistress lawls I donno other word xDDD yeah, its hurt when we bumping with each other seing you all lovey dovey with her. And when you're home, we chat like nothing happened.

And yesh, we never talk at school, we just communicate on fb surprise surprise~

I dont even know why I wrote it here, but guess whudd ? I felt relieved after I confess it all here. And I'm not ready to receive all the negative comment such as 'you're a ' 'you're being third wheel here get out ' or maybe 'you're going to ruin a happy relationship' and worse 'die die' yehet