Soo I finished finals and didn't do tha well on them but still passed! And I'm not getting a 4.0 this marking period but that'd okay, it's not gonna kill me... My dad came back from work after like a month! And I was really excited yesterday until today came. For a while which is probably for over 4years I've noticed a lot of changes that had happened to one of my best friends. She has changed tragically for the past few years, we've met in 6th grade, and she was one of the first few people that didn't bully me throughout my whole middle school years. But today we were talking, and she told me about this one guy that we have in our academy. He apparently bullies her constantly, but bot really physically but mentally, means that he says stuff here and there! She told me about him during second period, but what scared me the most was not him bullying her, but the fact that this type of things that he does to her, drives her back to her suicidal thoughts she had for years and years. I started crying, cause I couldn't even think about the fact of losing another person!!! It's just unbearable to even think about. So then she noticed me crying, and told me that she's glad that there's actually a person who cares about her to even shed a tear, that broke my heart again, case I know for a fact her family isn't that much of a perfect family... Few months/weeks ago she told me about her used to cutting and self harming, which at that time I was really surprised cause she had never mentioned anything about self harming herself at all. I'm sorry guys I just wanted to get this off my chest but I know that I'll be thinking about every night for the rest of my life just like how ever since my grandma died I've been thinking and referring every moment that I haven't spent with her and eveytimr that I've told my mom to tell her I'm sleeping or away whenever she called to ask about us... I'm sorry