So, I was just scrolling through my YouTube subscriptions and I saw it. The SM Global Auditions video :o 

I was like so shocked and happy and sad and stuff (Stuff I can't really explain) and I clicked on it. 

The video started playing and my heart literally stopped. And I don't know why.

So back to the video :) It started playing those music and audition dates and countries and I kept on watching.

But reality struck me when I remembered I'm still a freaking kid and my dad would not be happy if I auditioned and stuff. Complicated . 

Anyways, I can't really audition cause they are not going to hold auditions here in Malaysia. I am not really sure that's a good thing or a bad thing. But, even if I fly all over to the nearest country from Malaysia that is holding the audition (Indonesia maybe? I at Geography) and passed the audition, I can't really fly all over to Korea or China to become a trainee. 

REALITY  

i guess i should just be the ordinary girl and wait for the right time for me to shine :(

Anyone having dissappointments like me? Leave a comment  :)