oh god I just finished watching the japanese movie 'I give my first love to you' and I can't stop crying. I'm still crying while writing this. It's been a really long time since I've cried this much. Last time must've been when I watched 'Taiyou no Uta' back when I was 14 or something... 4 years ago. Oh god!

I can't describe this movie, it was just amazing and the saddest ever... I'll never have enough of japanese movies. They're always the best at making me cry a river!

ajnklwsdgfghl can't. too. much. feels. my heart is beating like crazy and my head is aching and my eyes are swollen from crying so much... dammit! and I can't get over the fact that Okada Masaki looks like Chanyeol and that makes it even more sadder. So throughout the whole movie I also pictured Inoue Mao as Baekhyun so it became like this BaekYeol drama movie and akslfsjdfkg

then I forgot about imagining them as baekyeol and just watched the movie and now I'm crying and I regret and not regret watching it because now I won't be able to get over it for a couple of weeks and I probably won't stop thinking about it.

I've been wanting to see this movie ever since I was 15, but I always stopped myself from doing so since I knew it was sad as hell, and now was the first time I got myself to watch it... I'm in love with it, just like the manga... but I'm still so saaaad ;A; oh god!!! noooo!

and the manga is amazing too! that one I can't get over either.... now I have to watch sometihng else and try to get my mind into something else... so I can move on with my life and not just sit around and crying over this movie.... god dammit!