I’ve lost someone, someone really important to me, so important she was a part of me and now she’s gone. I just let her walk away without even trying, without me fighting for what I thought was mine. I already feel this empty hold where my heart was, this part of me that I loved so much. How do I keep going now? She held me in her arms to keep me from shaking, she pulled me out my darkness when no one else could. How could I accept she was just gone before my eyes. I won’t be able to hold her like I used to. Smile and be with her  in our special moments that no one knew about. She came to visit me at the gym and told me she wanted to go out. I agreed, really I would couldn’t say no to her. She took me to our favorite coffee shop and we sat down together.

“I have to tell you something” she said looking at me with sad eyes.

“What is it?” I replied smiling.

“I don’t love you anymore..I’m sorry”.

“You don’t..?”

“I fell for someone else, I’m so sorry I didn’t mean-“

I laughed bitterly, “Well tell me who it is”. No don’t tell who it is, tell me you’re lying.

“It’s Alex” she said the red blush that used to be for me appeared on her cheeks.

“Oh, well its okay I don’t mind, I’ve got to go, I’ll umm see you later”. I get up and walk away, before any part of me broke down. I walked back to the gym and stared myself in the mirror. What have I’ve done wrong to deserve this? I did everything for her, cause I loved her. It all felt like a waste. My anger just came up and next thing I knew I had punched the mirror. The pain spreading into my arm. I looked at it, staring at the blood pooling on the floor. 

“Tiffany  what the happened?!?” I look over and there was my friend. She looked at me and said nothing. She walked over and picked me up. “ Cmon let’s just get you the doctor. I stood up and followed her outside and see her, the girl who comforted me before just staring and me with her new babe. I smiled sadly and walked out the door. I’ve lost the love of my life and now I’ve lost a great friend as well.

Honestly, this was the hardest time and I can’t believe it happened today 

I didn’t want our relationship to end this way, but I guess that’s how love is

But now I don’t even know what love is anymore

I don’t know who I am anymore.