December 17 - 19, 2013.

 

"Tiger, what are you doing?” I asked. Tiger didn't answer, instead, continued smiling at the replies she got from Prince, who she texted after I told her a dream. A few minutes later, Tiger wanted to move seats so we stood up and she cleared our table, I grabbed her phone and made a dash.  I need to see what he said. Soon enough though, she caught me before I had the chance to see the message but she promised she'd show me.

 

"I asked him what he thought about you.” 

 

He said, I was an awesome, exciting and fun girl. (Oops, forgot what he said.) but it was what I thought about him too, maybe..

 

Then, she told him we fit together and told him that she wasn't giving any signals or anything but I had a feeling he knew. I mean, whenever people ask you if you like their bestfriend, SOMETHING's wrong and obvious that their best friend does like you. 

 

Prince said, "I'm not looking for a relationship."

 

I smiled at that. I did. He might like someone else or he just wasn't looking for a relationship or maybe even still wanted to get to know someone he liked better and I'm not saying that's me. 

 

And I told Tiger about the Two Months Rule. I had only 13 days left. It would end at January 1. When it strikes midnight, I would have to stop liking Prince. I know it won't be possible. But I will start to deny everything, start to tell myself that it just isn't going to work out and I'm still young. 

 

On Wednesday, I went to help out with an event with some group members. After a long tiring evening, we finished and we took the train back home. I say beside my oppa, he's not really my brother but it seemed interesting to call him oppa* because he thinks it disgusting and I love the reaction he gives me. And I love annoying and irritating him. But I don't have a crush on him or anything. He's 4 years older (-.-) . I don't do guys older than me by 3 years. I about his crush. I wasn't really sure who but I had a name in my mind and continued to .

 

 

 

"You like prince, right? Right? You like prince? .... .... He likes someone else, Y'know?" I gave oppa a smile and felt my heart wanting to burst. I felt happy and I felt sad, and like any other people, I felt sad more than happiness.

 

I felt happy he found someone he liked and sad, because that someone wasn't me. 

 

I don't chase after boys who is chasing after someone else. I've learned from the past; chasing after someone who's running away from me for four years. 

 

It never works our for me. All I ever got was hurt. 

 

Tiger texted me when I was at home. She said I never really liked him anyways. 

 

I was hurt. I felt like I did? I had questions in my mind, how could you tell and I can't? Was it because I didn't bother chasing after him anymore? Can't she understand that I really don't want to get hurt? She felt like I was his second but I don't want to be second, I'd rather be nothing than second. It would hurt because he likes you but he would pick the first girl every time because he likes her more than you.

 

I might not be chasing him but liking him won't hurt, right? 

 

The next day, we went to the second last day of filming this mini movie.  

 

Tiger was one of the actors, she was the only actress. 

 

She found out who Prince liked. His Noona* . Noona wasn't his sister, it was just like me and oppa. Prince liked her despite being one year younger and shorter than Noona. Noona doesn't return his feelings, it was obvious. 

 

The day was going to end and we sat on a bus to another location. Prince's best friend in the group, who was 8 years older,  Olef*, heard something about a two month thing. Tiger who sat beside him explained and I hope that her explanation was more or less accurate.

 

“What If something happens on the countdown and he starts falling for you?" He asked me. 

 

I shrugged. I don't know. We were going inside a college to film. Olef, who was waiting for a text from a girl he met while we volunteered yesterday, was tense. Telling me and tiger that he had no hope since she hasn't replied yet and I told him to calm down and be patient. It was fun, I enjoyed watching boy having a crush.

 

He asked,“So you have a crush on prince? You like prince? So it's jut a crush? Crush, right?"

 

I nod. "Crush is really common—”

 

“Olef! Haha, you're so funny, still waiting for her text, huh?” 

 

He smiled and nodded. 

 

After shooting the first scene at the college, we sat down while some of us went to get stuff. 

 

7.9/5*  (I call him 7.5 but Tiger calls him 7.9) we rated him and tiger rated him 9 but I said he was a 7.5 and she said 7.9 .

 

Tiger told him about the two month rule and he immediately called me heart breaker. 

 

“—And she doesn't want to get hurt.”

 

“But that's Love!” 

 

“Yah!” Tiger agreed.

 

What the heck. I never said I loved him(XD). So I explained that I waited for someone for four years but he just threw me away. 

 

And he made some comments about him liking a girl for five years and tiger was like, "I like someone for five years."

 

7.9 thought it was her ex but she said no. "I liked someone else while I dated him." 

 

"Who is it?” He asked me. 

 

“Sorry, I can't. Trust.” And we chuckled. It was him. Tiger liked him. 

 

“Who does 5* like?” 5 was insecure, but he really isn't bad at all.

 

“Sorry, I can't. Trust.” 7.9 mimicked me and we laughed. 

 

Today, there's group meeting. I going to see prince again, but I'm not excited. I feel like I should treasure my last 10 days.

 

 

10 days. 

 

 

*names have been changed.