so, right now i'm actually being that oversensitive again.
but, when you've depressed, has to take really weird pills you're scared of, and then fight with your best friend and have these thoughts that you'll never talk to her again... you die inside... i do, at least.
i don't have my appointment to see my psychologist until wednesday.

and my weekend got ed up. i was actually supposed to go to my dad's house together with my best friend. she got sick, so she couldn't make it, and that's okay. but when i hadn't slept for seriously five night in a row, i fell asleep and i didn't go to my dad at all. i stayed at home and slept away my whole weekend, and now i'm so depressed about i'm going to cry.

and i really did look forward on going to school this week, since i haven't been there for a month and a half... and since i have a medical certificate, i can choose if i want to go one day, mostly because i'm stressed, depressed and i don't want to go because i'm mostly just too sad. but an hour ago or something... i fought with my best friend and now i'm not going. i don't want to be there when she's not.

and i'm really sad because of it and if it's the last time i talk to her, i'll probably not coming back to school at all. i'll be home crying, thinking more of suicide... maybe people wouldn't take it seriously, but i'm too sensitive nowadays.. and my sleeping issues and the pills are making me very insecure about everything.

just needed to write down my feelings for a bit.

just, thank you for whoever have read this, and i hope you're having an amazing day, because i really do want you to.