Okay I'm not here to rant. (Well somewhat.)

I'm sick of the EXO fandom.

I really really am. Don't get me wrong, EXO is my #1 group and I'm a die hard exotic, but omfg. I can't take our fandom anymore. I absolutely can NOT.

I cried the other day. I know I sound irrational but I'm one of the few sane Exotics left and it's hurting my heart so much. Does anyone understand ?!?!

Why. WHY.

Why has our fandom gotten so sick, childish, disturbing, and unprofessional?! WHY. CAN SOMEONE TELL ME. PLEASE. I NEED SOME JUSTIFICATION, GOD DAMN IT.

I've been a fan since the 23-teaser days. I remember our fandom during that era. Omg, we were the absolute ing best. I used to be so proud to be an exotic because our fandom was so friendly, freacking hilarious and just plain awesome. Everyone used to be jealous cuz exotics would make the best memes ever. Do you remember? Now thinking of those days, I come to tears.

What have we become. Yes, the saesangs are a SUPER SUPER SUPER HUGE PORTION of my shame but I'm talking international fans too.

You know how people always say we're so mean and we're always trolling on other people's videos? Okay, as much as you don't want to admit it, you have to. It's NOT a ing lie. Its completely true. Yes, other fandoms do it too but we are the freacking WORST. Why?!

And now, I was just watching a performance of Miracles in December on Music Core, with Luhan and Lay. And what do I see in the comment section?!

"Why did they put Luhan in here, his voice sounds weird."

"It was better with only the trio and Lay."

"Luhan's voice doesn't fit in here."

...please tell me you're crying too. Now, WE'RE EVEN TURNING OUR BACKS ON SOME OF THE ING MEMBERS. ARE WE ING SERIOUS?!!?!?!?!?!?!

I want Exo to know some of us are still sane. I want them to know how proud we are that after all the they've been going through, they're still sticking to it.

I want to see a geniune smile on D.O. face again. I want to see a hyper and trolling Chanyeol and Chen again. I want to see a undepressed Sehun and Tao. I want to see Suho and Kris not get wrinkles from the stress. I want to see Xiumin stop crying from the pressure of losing weight. I want to see Luhan stop worrying about the safety of his dongsaengs. I want to see Kai and Baekhyun and Lay stop showing fake happiness.

I'm thinking of a plan. Something to let them know some of us are here!

WE'RE HERE, AND SANE, AND GOD DAMNIT WE ARE WORRIED.