I know this may not be the place to put this but I feel like its the best place to share this. The last few months haven't been so good, even though I've been trying to stay optimistic about it all.My mom has been placed in a asylum for god knows how long. My grades have dropped. My cousin and aunt's homes (two separate house) burn to the ground a few days before Thanksgiving. My six week old baby cousin whom was a triplet died two days ago from a sickness. My big brother went to jail and oldest cousin was shot and killed. No, my brother didn't kill him, it as separate events. My grandmother complains everyday about money. I give what I can and have but she still complains. My younger siblings constantly lie and steal. Seriously, they are absolutely idiots. Everyone in the house knows they are the one taking money and stuff, but they constantly lie about it.

I really don't know why I am even alive, seriously. Life ...It just hurts.

They say things will get better. But when?

I try to smile and be happy... But damn it I wonder how the hell am I not an alcoholic already! Or maybe worse.

I wish I wasn't born.

Life would be better without me in it, seriously.

The doctor's gave meds. They didn't help. They sent me to shrink. She told me I was fine. Went back to the doctors, he used many big terms. But I'm not stupid I knew what he was saying. He was calling me crazy. Sometime I wish it can all explode... But it would do no good because I'll be all alone.

I don't know what to do. Maybe someone can help me....But I doubt it.

I'm sorry I bombarded you with my life. Forgive me. I'm not worth listening to.