I've always been there for you,

Never wanting to leave your side,

Always there for you

Whenever you were bored

Whenever you were happy

Whenever you were sad

Whenever you were angry

But who do I have? 

I've only known how to help someone else

Never have I learned what it felt to feel loved.

Never have I known what it felt to feel appreciated.

I've always been your pillar

But on the inside of this pillar....... I'm crumbling

Hurting

It hurts.

All I have ever known was pain.

Since young, I taught myself to never be selfish.

To never hurt someone else

To never sit there as someone else is being hurt

I forgot what happiness feels like

What love feels like.

I lived as a person only wanting to see other's happy.

Always telling myself "Self pain is nothing compared to the unhappiness of another."

I spent my life building up walls

Creating masks so I can always see someone else smile.

A person's smile is worth more than a million words

Living like this..... not knowing what it feels like to love, be happy, feel good about myself..... What does it feel like?

When will it be my turn?