One of my lovely readers wanted me to post my feelings/response to Myungsoo's dating scandal, so I will pour all of my feelings from that day here.

To start this off, I want to just say that I was disappointed. I wasn't disappointed, because Myungsoo was dating though. To be honest, I was just disappointed because he and Woollim entertainment had lied to us. I love Myungsoo and Woollim from the bottom of my heart and will continue to do so, but the fact that they hid this from us just kind of made me sad. I mean, if they had said "Yes, they are dating," from the start, I would've been sad for a little bit, and then happy that Myungsoo has found someone, but it just bothered me that they said that they were just friends and then came out and said that they, in fact, did date.

I kind of put my feelings into the oneshot I wrote about this news, where I had Sungyeol tell Myungsoo why he wasn't talking to him. I felt like such an idiot and even farther away from Infinite as idols when the news came out. I, along with many others, ridiculed that poor girl, telling others that she's just a fake, and that she was lying about dating Myungsoo just for attention when she actually wasn't lying. Can you imagine that? You're dating this wonderful man, but he can't tell anyone about it, and then you have a bunch of fans bashing you for telling lies when they were true. I know that she's done something like this before, but this time it was real. I don't know. I just felt bad because I thought Myungsoo was the kind of person that wouldn't want his loved one to be hurt, no matter what it did to his image. But then again, that might just be too much of an expectation.

When I heard that he had actually dated her, it was kind of a slap to my face. It was a huge wake-up call that yelled at me saying you'll never date an idol. Seeing her picture really just sent my self esteem spiraling down. Myungsoo's not even my bias in Infinite, so I can't even imagine how those that are Myungsoo-biased must have felt. It was really bad news for me, because the news came out a little bit after I had seen Infinite in their OGS concert in SJ. I felt so close to them, the eye contact, the touching of hands, seeing their face less than 5 feet away, and then the minute the news came out it was like I blinked and they were suddenly a million miles away from me again.

I don't know the language enough to be fluent, I don't have the clear, pale skin, and I don't have the body to ever get an idol to notice me. I know that it's not all about the looks, but then again, it's not like you have your personality written all over your face. The news just told me that the only thing I'd ever be to them is a fan, and it just hurt. I know that I'm probably never going to get to date and marry an idol like I dream of, but just to see that it would actually never happen hurt. It was a reality I had avoided for a long time, and the article just threw that reality at my face. 

Sorry this post is a little depressing. Thinking about it just brought back my feelings from back then, and I don't think any of us had a great reaction to that new article. I'll try to end on a good note!

So, the day after I found out about them dating, I wore all black to school to mourn my imaginary relationship with Myungsoo. My mom asked me why I was wearing all black, and I told her exactly that. She laughed at me. OTL

So, how did you guys react to it?