I don't like love

As i lie down in my bed being engulfed by the darkness of this moonless night....

I take your picture from it's hiding place and i look at your face....

Remembering all of our times together....

All those memories just rush in and fills me up like a bottomless sea....

At this moment only these words rings inside of me as my tears starts to fall....

"Why is my heart becoming so unruly,"
Like my disheveled hair?
Nowadays, living doesn't really feel like living;
I just want to see you.

I don't know what had been so enjoyable, and yet, so difficult,
About things like love and a man like you.
The sad memories that catch my eye once again;
What shall I do, again, about this sleepless night?

The only thing I want is this love;
And yet, it's also this love that I want to throw away.
This love that I can neither attain nor throw away...
I hate it so much.

I can't remember the expression of my lips and eyes
When I laughed that laugh that only you could elicit.
The stranger that I see whenever I look into the mirror;
That person is actually me.

We should have never met
Because I didn't know that this feeling
is what pain is, when I didn't know you.
Your voice is ringing in my ears yet again...
What am I to do about my days,
that are gradually growing longer?

The only thing I want is this love;
And yet, it's also this love that I want to throw away.
This love that I can neither attain nor throw away...
I hate it so much.

My love,
that I dearly wish to forget,
And yet, want to never forget;
I don't know, ooh, ooh, I hate it...
I really do hate love now.

This love that I can neither attain nor throw away...
" I hate it so much. "

P.S... the song is " I don't like love " by Xia Junsu