I am back with senpai feels omfg.

For those of you who have read my senpai posts before are probably like, oh my goodness this is going to be funny/good/fanficinspiring. 

For those of you who haven't, well. I don't know what to say..

/whispers/ btw I'm updating this weekend YAAAAAAY~

So, the last time I posted about senpai was September, surprisingly (yes I checked).

And I talked about how my friend and her boyfriend who are really close to senpai found out.

Okay from there it got really weird.

First of all my friend's boyfriend constantly makes fun of me and pushes me to talk to him like everyday which is rly irritating ksndfnksjndknf.

Second of all, I've been getting mixed feelings. Oh, I just looked and I mentioned that in my last blog post oops. But yeah,.

Lately, I haven't had feelings for anyone and its just been calm /tybg/ 

But now it just hit me back and i crey.

Okay, so the usual happens where we push into each other in band idk that sounds rly dorky but yeah. and we'd have small talks about kpop, but usually sht happens on twitter.

wow that sounds rly lonely how my life revolves around the internet.

ANYWAYS, so lately everyone that I know has been calling me impure AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY LIKE I HAVENT CHANGED AT ALL ITS WEIRD.

and everyone just joined in, even people I don't like.

well, he was also one of them /rolls eyes/ and he like calls me impure and sht i just jksnfsnkdnj 

uh here's a convo i saved:

me: i am going to hurt u
him: you hurt me everyday in band so
me: pffft, u do it too ok dont act innocent
him: RIGHT BACK AT CHA
me: but.... i am innocent ;u;
other chick: ur not pure
him: i agree
me: fuq u guys
him: "he said as he was---"
***he was trying to like connect it to if u get what i mean******
me: sTOP OMFG IM SCREAMING
him: "he said as he was---"
other chick: EMBRACE THE DARKNESS
him: WHOA WHAT
me: shush nothing (other chick) is weird
other chick: CHECK HER ASK FM
****okay so what happened was on ask fm my friend (betareader) was acting innocent and saying she cant write when she writes it all the time so i said that BUT I DIDNT THINK PEOPLE ACTUALLY LOOKED AT MY ASK FM ;u;*******
 

yeah so that's all i saved but yeah he's been making fun of me which is not fun istg

okay, so what happened recently was ok

so hes in marching band (oMYGOD I AM MAKING HIM SOUND LIKE THE DORKIEST PERSON EVER) and like marching band has invitationals which is basically a performance that people buy tickets for and other schools also come and perform. its a once every year thing.

so, i wanted to come to support my friends aka the guy who i had mixed feelings for, my friend, and her boyfriend and some other people lol. like he was on the last of my worries.

so i bought it from the guy who i had mixed feelings for AAAAAAAAND

I lost the ticket. 

like istg it was in my whap book and then it just disappeared 

i searched everywhere for it and i couldnt find it 

but i rly wanted to go, so i just bought another one today.

and i only brought a 10 (they are 5 dollars each) so i bought one for betareader. 

AND NOW MY TICKET IS IN MY PHONE CASE SAFE TILL TOMORROW.

so here's the weird thing.

ok my 7th period (last class) is rly close to the band room, so my friends and i usually walk with the guy i had mixed feelings for to the band room and walk to korean club practice which is on the other side of school. 

ok u dont know how big my school is. its like one side to the other is a 7-10 walk. which is rly irriating tbh. 

so, we're almost at the other side, and i think i was talking about fiestar with my friend when i feel someone tap my shoulder.

i turn around and its the guy i had mixed feelings for, and he was breathing deeply like as if he ran (which he prolly did) and he gives me an invitation ticket.

i grabbed it at first and i was confused like wtf.

me: what is this from 
him: (senpai) is giving it to you
me: what are you talking about
him: he said its a little gift for you
me: but i already got a ticket
him: really???? from who???
me: brandon, i bought one for me and ((betareader))
him: oh sht, ill just give it to someone else i think jason wanted one
me: no wait.
**i rly wanted the ticket bc it was from senpai))
him: u already have your ticket ok see you at the invitational

and he left.

dood, i was so confused. 

my friends kinda shook it off, but i couldn't like.

i started to remember what happened today.

so at band, we cant go in our room so we went to one of the "commons" which is a big room with villa offices OMFG SOME OF U ARE PROLLY CONFUSED OK so like villas are how my school is split up, A, B, C, and D. so we went to D commons. (the villas aren't that big of a deal as they may seem LOL)

and like i walked into the door the same time him and his friend did. (unintentional istg) the doors are big btw. and like his friend pushes him to hit me. which was rly weird, so i just didnt think and pushed him back.

AT THE TIME I DIDNT CARE, BUT NOW IM JUST LIKE WHY WOULD HIS FRIEND DO THAT.

AM I OVERTHINKING THIS WHOLE THING

LIKE WHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENS I DONT KNOW

LIKE HOMECOMING IS NEXT WEEK

WHAT IF HE ASKS ME

/SLAPS SELF/ THAT'LL NEVER HAPPEN

BUT IM STILL CONFUSED ISTG

I DONT LIKE FEELINGS CAN THIS PLS STOP 

im rly excited for invitationals tho im ngl the marching band this year is rly good.