Hi, my name is Samantha and I am an upcoming junior in the fall, for those of you who didn't know.

I haven't been on here in a while. And I'm here to say my last goodbyes.

I have spent a good year and half on this website, making great friends, reading amazing works of fanfics, and writing what I want and people listening to me. 

But it's going to end.

For those of you who don't know, junior year is where it all counts if you want to get into a good college. Colleges look at that year the most and I can't afford to screw up anymore. I thought that over the summer before junior year begins, I could get a lot done and say goodbye without so much pain in my heart. I thought I could finish the fics I started and been a great help to nyoko's fic and ann's shop, but the stress killed me. I'm like this because I have two older brothers, one of them went to one of the best schools in the state, UCSB, and the other one went to one of the best schools in the country, Stanford. So that puts so much pressure on me because everyone in my family is looking at me and what I'm gonna do and where I'm gonna go. I spent a lot of summer running away from my responsibilities which includes my responsibilities on here and my summer homework. School is starting on Aug 12, and I feel a lot of guilt on here and a lot of stress over my homework. And I know it's my fault and I'm an irresponsible person, but I wanted to run away while it didn't matter much before it does and my grades suffer. I'm lucky to realize this homework situation a little early than what I would've expected from me. But that still leaves you guys hanging and I hate myself for doing this. I know I may seem like I'm overreacting, but I've let down a lot of people in my life and looking at this website makes me feel like I've let down you guys as well. 

To Nyoko: I'm sorry. Gosh, I really love Lord of Shadows and I love the plot a lot. I wish I could continue working with you because it was a lot of fun writing with you. I hope maybe if my anxiety goes down I'll be able to pop in on the chapters and add a few things because it felt nice knowing how I could help work on such an amazing fic. So please continue to share the edits to me. heh. You're amazing Nyoko! 

To Ann: I am especially sorry to you. I know that the person who was before me was a total screw up and I didn't want to be the same, but I ended up being one anyway and I'm sorry for that. I know how much you love your shop and I feel like I brought down some of its integrity and it makes me feel horrible. I only wrote one fic for you and the rest I just couldn't and it breaks my heart. You can call me irresponsible and rant about me to the person who replaces me, I deserve it; I know. 

To my readers: I think I only finished like one fic on here. But I will try to wrap things up someday with these fics. But if not, I will just post a plot breakdown of how I wanted it to go, or I'll give it to any person who is willing to pickup on writing the fic (message me if you want to) I feel terrible for letting you guys down and leaving you with the worst cliffhangers and I am sorry. 

To my friends: All of those who considered me a friend and talked to me, I thank you. Thank you for being so kind and loving when a good amount of you didn't even know who I really was. LOL. I love you guys a lot and thank you for making AFF so much fun. I enjoyed every minute on this website.

This is really hard for me to do. I'm not going to deactivate this account just in case anyone would want to read my fics that are out. And if I end up actually inspiried to write something, I'll post it. But right now I feel uninspired and just a lot of anxiety and pressure. If any of you guys want to talk to me still, I have line and kakao my user is samanthabruuh. And I'll check my messages on here once in a while.

So, goodbye. 

-Melody-In-Love