Hey, guys~ well, I'm having an emotional day. I've just cried for the first time when Sica was calling me. I guess I'm just stressing out about my life. I have been bottling up my feelings for months now and I finally cracked. I'm one of the students from top three classes in my school. I have this problem where I'm always feeling lazy, thinking school's and all of that. Even when I fail and people would be..mad at me, I acted I didn't care although inside I was worrying bout it. I keep telling myself to change my attitude but somehow it's too hard for me. Before my exams, I work my off to study especially Math cause it's the only one subject I'm really weak at. But, today, when I was taking the test, I only managed to answer 2 questions and I had to copied it from a friend. I told my parents I wanna prove to them I can do it. But, I fail again. Next year, for Malaysian who are the same age as me, we are going to have an important exam; SPM. It's the thing that will decided our future ahead. It's the one I'm worried cause I'm afraid I would fail again and I would dissapoint my parents. Then, Sica told me "unnie, you gotta stay strong. I want you to change and I would help you every step of the way." I actually cried when she said that. I know it's lame but...there was no one for me to talk too. My only hope, I wish I could change.

To the readers who are younger than me, don't ever think that school is . Yeah, you have to wake up early everyday and attend classes and you can't spazz about your bias. However, studying is still important and it's the thing that changes your life. Please take my advice. I'm sorry if I wasted your time by reading an essay (?) bout my feelings. Thank you though~ Ahh~ I feel so much better now! Have an awesome day, Awesomeners ~ Love you so muchy!