10月7日感谢你降临在这个世界上，艺兴哥生日快乐！！！

 

 

Zhang Yixing

 

 

I guess I’m going to begin this by wishing you a happy birthday. I honestly don’t know how to continue right after this. There’s just so much I want to tell you but I just don’t know where to begin with. When I think of you my thoughts are just jumbled and I’m just as incoherent as a toddler.

 

The first time I’ve seen you was when you subbed Jonghyun during SHINee’s concert in Japan back in 2010. You look really juvenile back then with your long black hair and eyes lined with kohl. You were up to par with your seniors in dancing, which amazed me. I just have a gut feeling that you were gonna debut sooner or later. Not a lot of trainees are given that chance and I was rather hopeful that it wasn’t the first and last time that I would be able to see your face. We didn’t even caught your name.

 

SM then officially announced EXO’s debut. The ‘teaser era’ was a drag. I didn’t even recognize you. You just struck to me as that mysterious guy with a weird stage name. 

 

Then History came out, and that first 3 seconds became a turning point of my fangirl life. You looked absolutely breathtaking and as cheesy as it sounds, when I saw your eyes, in that one moment, I fell in love and I officially decided to stan you. I’m so glad I chose you. Seeing the Nobody cover, I know I made a right choice. I also, surprisingly, came to know that you were that trainee back then and I’m greatly happy that you are finally living your dreams and you deserve to be because you’re such a passionate artist & musician. 

 

It’s really cheesy how as EXO grows in the industry, how you grow in the industry that I realized I don’t think I love you the same way I did when I first laid my eyes on you- I think I love you even more. I came to love every bit that made you the Yixing that we know, that I know……..

 

 

 

…the way you sing your self-composed songs even with your high pitched and sometimes off-key voice with ardor because I know that this came to be your passion when you were a child.

 

…the way you looked attentively at the fingers gliding the keyboard even when you’re supposed to cheer for Baekhyun because you wanted to learn that piece.

 

…the way you dance, hitting the right beats gracefully- but it also hurts seeing you pushing yourself too much because of your ridiculously high expectations.

 

…the way you would end up being the last one onstage just to give the longest and deepest bows to your fans, to the xingmi and oftentimes with your really corny and generic L sign

 

…the way you sound like an official running for an ambassador post when you use formal Chinese on your fans, and your never ending thanks.

 

…the way you imitate Christina, even if it isn’t funny at times because you always keep on doing it at every radio and variety show so as to be funny and not plain. You’re already funny as even when you try to be serious -_-“

 

…the way you would always settle for the far back away from the rest of the group, to chat with Luhan making it hard for both of your fansite masters to take a photo.

 

…the way you dote on your members, being playful with them because I’ve always loved that inner child in you, 毕竟还是个孩子

 

…the way you care for your members, and when they return the feelings as well.

 

…the way you make those tiny gestures and mannerisms of your hands- sometimes fiddling with your necklace and even that stupid habit of biting your thumb when you’re thinking, when you’re bored, when you’re nervous.

 

…the way you forgot things like passport and age, and even your stage name- because you secretly like Pringles, just kidding, 小脑袋都用来记歌词和舞蹈动作了

 

…the way you wear the same thing because you really don’t give a damn as long as you’re comfortable with what you’re wearing- hoodie, wifebeater, low-rise skinnies, black converse and MCM backpacks.

 

…the way you trust your fans when you go bareface on airports showing them your acne scars, or when you would sneakily wear your mask at times especially on early morning flights.

 

…the way you still space out and become a jpg, your cluelessness, your dumbness but your just being you.

 

…the way you smile so genuinely, your eyes turning into slits and the dents of your cheeks showing because you are really enjoying so much- I wish you would make patbingsoo on every show.

 

…the way your dimple flashes, an abnormal defect that has become your asset.

 

…the way your eyes shine when you perform, it’s the thing that I love the most, there’s a whole universe in there.

 

 

I want to share that universe with everyone. I want them to see you smile. I want them to be moved with your dancing and singing. I want them to feel your passion. I want them to love you Yixing. Even if I feel useless at times because I have never supported you, screamed your name, and wave those purple banners for you at a concert.

 

You are an inspiration. I wake up every day thinking that if you can do it, why can’t I?- even if our goals are entirely different, even if you already achieve yours and I’m still working with mine.

 

But Yixing, there’s no need for you to strive hard and push yourself to the limits to be perfect. Even with your flaws, I believe you’re an ideal and I hope that you would eventually think the same way too, that it’s okay to have faults. You’re a great person, and you have an even greater fanbase supporting you. I know that you have always been proud on every xingmi, I hope you’re proud of yourself too.

 

Yixing you shine the most in my eyes. I wish you all the happiness in the world on your birthday, continue loving your family, your fans, yourself! I wish you would finally score that Italian dinner with Lee Soo Man because you deserve it.

 

兴兴生日快乐 继续为我们治愈吧