Annyeong! :)

So yeah, i know i really should have finished this drawing by now but i tend to start something, stop doing it and then pick it up days, to weeks, to months, to even years later. 

So yeah, i thought i would post another pic of what it looks like at the moment. I've been focusing on the lips, background and neck a little bit.

I noticed that the jaw is a little too long but i don't think it makes too much difference, anyway here is my master piece....

 compared to how it was before...

I'm quite happy with the improvements!! ^_^

I've actually had a bit of an odd day today, i think i was just really tired and stress is catching up to me a little.

But a lot of my friends are having their 16th birthdays soon and i have not been invited to any of them. Now i'm not all that bothered about that, but it made me realise just how out of the social circle at school i have become. Not in the sense that i am bullied or anything, just that i'm missing out on doing stuff. Like i've never been to a party (you know, other than those silly ones we used to have as kids) I don't know who is dating who, like one of my nest friends, and i found out they've been going out for like 2 months. I made a right prat out of myself at THAT conversation. Plus MY birthday is coming up next month and i have NO IDEA what to do, i asked my friend but i sounded so lame not knowing how to be sociable. Ugh, i felt like dying!!

But i don't know what triggered it, i'm usually very content with my social position. No one hates me and i have friends, i know great people online and i love listening to K-Pop and watching K-Dramas. I'm fine with filling my life with only this, but for some reason i started to question if i am too socially isolated because i am falling behind the others, i don't know how to do the simplest things or what to wear to a place, how to act, what to do... It's all lost on me. I used to always joke about it but now i'm wondering, what should i do? Do i have to leave my friends to go to more social ones and gain the experiences and have LOADS of fun, or do i just do what i have always done and wait to see what happens? I'm fine with it now, but would i regret my decision in the future???

Life is confusing.

I can't say 'Life is Hard' because honestly, my life is pretty much F***ing perfect.

I have a great family who always support me (even if they are a little over-protective), close friends at school, amazing people i know online, no issues to do with bullying, i got over my 'little' depression (it was hardly even a depression, more lack of self confidence + discovering i was a masochist), great grades with the opportunity to go on and do practically anything i want... the list goes on, i don't exactly have the right to complain about anything, and i am incredibly grateful for what i have, but social skills are important and i don't want to miss out on gaining them.

Ugh, eottoke??

I know i am making a big deal out of practically nothing but i'm just confused about life. *le sigh* I'll understand better in the morning.

I'm sorry that you have to put up with me, and i'm really grateful to all of you who support me. <3 ^_^

Ppyong,

BabyLocket Xx