this may be goodbye

life . okay
every body hates me
everybody. i don't give a what you say
everybody does. deep inside i know..
they all gossip about me, call me a
BUT NO ONE REALIZES HOW MUCH IT
ING HURTS ME! THEY DON'T GIVE A .
so you want a little confession? recently..
i've been cutting myself on my wrist.
so far i've gotten about 2cm in. thanks.
i think i want to kill myself. seriously
life and my bipolarness. 
AND ALL OF YOU HATERS AT SCHOOL
YOU! SERIOUSLY. STOP ASKING WHY I HAVE
A BANDAGE ON MY ARM. STOP TAKING IT OFF.
STOP CALLING ME EMO. STOP ASKING "WHY'D YOU DO IT"
YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? ITS BECAUSE OF YOU.

-amaterasu.
9/20/13
possibly last time you will hear from me.

update: 
i'm trying to slit my throat.
i'm cutting it.
just let me die. i want to die.
all of you.. 
you know all of my anger piles up,
so- you want to know why i punched you,
little miss perfect?! BECAUSE YOU HURT MY FEELINGS
YOU INSULT ME TOO MUCH . I WILL MURDER YOU.


haha second update es.
oh hmmmmm........
i wonder why she got to die
THANKS MIYEON.
so . my friend killed herself
isnt that nice? why can't
I kill myself. she ing
shot herself in the head.
WAHT THE . 
so- i went to a mental hospital
because my family sent me there
you know what? i'm still suicidal.
I've been cutting my legs, my thighs,
my arms, my wrist, my neck, and slitting
Part of my throat as the days pass. deeper and deeper
so yeah. you society
life.

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91LeaderJung #1
I agree with Jane unni..You may be just Kyou but am I not someone? She's right. You've been focusing too much on the negativity in society that u haven't realized the positive side of life. "Life doesn't have a second take" it's not a drama where u have an NG and u start over. Cherish what u have. Me, Kyou, Minhyun..Your RP family..So u ranted out that I lost my wife..but u can apply for another character and I will still chase u down as my new gf/wife either way. Think about it.
kimjxxnmyun #2
Mari...
Why didnt you tell me?
You know sometimes you're so involved with the negative environment around you that you dont even notice that people are here that actually support you. Though it may be only one it's better than nothing.

But those people who call you these things they dont know what they're missing out on. Call all this cliche but it's only cliche because it's true. But haters are gonna hate. They call you all this , but they dont really understand.

You worrying, cutting or harming yourself or others isn't going to resolve it. Especially if you commit suicide.


Just... don't do this Mari. Tell someone at least, someone in real life that can prevent this or lessen the harm and all this hate you are receiving.
I hope you see this.
Jane
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